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i just wanted to check if there is something wrong with me. i feel like i'm going crazy slowly. i sit for hours and hours...days and days and not do anything at all. nothing as in absolutely nothing. i can't even study no matter how hard i try. i feel like a blank wall...like i have no life inside of me. also, when i'm thinking it gets kind of weird. i think about conversations in a transcript form. and then it gets into the really off part. i form a question in my head that someone else would be asking me. (this person is ususally someone i know and have spoken with recently, or will speak with sometime soon.) and then i answer the question that i formed. this all happens inside of my head. but it's not like hearing voices or imagining things. i myself am forming the questions they would ask me. and then in this way somewhat of an imagined conversation is carried out. i am imagining what the other would say, and what i would say back. this doesn't happen all the time...but on average i would say once a day. also, i jog regularly to release built up motions cuz i internalize everything. i had a really bad childhood and wondering if it has caused some type of mental disorder. i'm really worried. i don't want to end up in a psych ward. maybe i should visit a psychiatrist before things get too serious? or am i normal?