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I am on very strong mental meds for anxiety, panic attacks, seizures. I take 40mg lexapro (pretty much max), 6mg (Xanax) pretty much max, 400mg (seraquil) pretty much max, and 1000mg depakote. I took a leave of absence from med school a while ago, some may remember due to how extremely messed up my anxiety got and how it mad it difficult to study, concentrate, sleep, breath right, and all the other symptoms that come with anxiety, just google GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder) you find out. Now I been in steady treatment for 7 months, i feel like the meds are helping me, but the side effects are scary: loss of short term memory (I keep repeating same stories to friends without knowing, very very high fatigue that I feel like sleeping 24/7, and sometimes i get occasional tremors and respiratory problems from the side effects. All the drugs are pretty addictive, skip a xanax dose and i am screwed. Now any of you med students on such high levels of dosage of similiar meds and manage to get through classes with no problem or at least able to manage to keep up. I am scared to go back and lose more money on tuition thinking I am ready but I really am not. I still have anxiety symtoms with the meds, but at lower levels, like I get scared to commit to a job or make commitment to long term things because I fear my anxiety is going to play with my head and convince me to leave due to unrealistic thoughts which is another symtom of anxiety. I am scared like 7 years of med school what if it peaks again at year 3, or 4 or 5, etc... I lost all that money and achieived nothing but huge sums of loans and higher doses of meds. Anyone with similar problems, stories, know others with such problems please share them with me.
Thank you.
Thank you.