Thanks for your input Soup. You know, I think that's what I haven't gotten over- the initial shock. I loved the way you likened some PD's to used car salesmen. I'm telling you, 1 & 2 really had me going!
While my ego is still hurting, I've recalled the day I certified my list. I was at peace, and I was willing to go to any of those programs I ranked. Why can't I convince myself of the same now? But hey, I guess it's better than going somewhere I would never be willing to go to, eh? So yes, I am coming to terms with the fact that I'll have to finish the year there and see how things go- a day at a time.
Thanks all!