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Bear with me.
I've been an RN for 5+ years now, I'm a 30yo female. The dream was always med school or PA school, but a lot of socioeconomic "life" stuff sent me make the choice that a 1 yr accelerated BSN program after undergrad was the best decision for my lifestyle (and it was, at the time, no big regrets). While my nursing career hasn't been completely miserable and has definitely provided some OK gigs and decent income, I've never been challenged or stimulated by it, per se. The highlights of my career so far have been doing clinical research and home hospice, both having the commonalities of working 1:1 with patients, more autonomously as a nurse, and a closer relationship with physicians that I respected the hell out of and taught me a lot more than they needed to for what my scope of practice is.
Med school has been a desire for about 10 years now, and about twice a year for a month I think, "it's time to finally bite the bullet and go to medical school". Set an entire plan for the next 10 years, talk to family and colleagues, and get excited. Then I start to think more holistically, scour SDN threads, and freak out over if it'll be the best decision for me, and how I don't know if I want to give up some years of life for medicine. I wonder if I can handle the stress, and the lack of balance. I enjoy my hobbies (hiking/yoga/reading), and am newly married to a husband who I have a lot of fun with and want to travel with. However, I think what's really new for me this year is that I am pretty set on leaving nursing, but I can't imagine leaving the patient care aspect. I'd miss the exposure I have to medicine. That there, is a pretty big signaling flag for me. Other concerns are that many of my personal issues are more ethical and political that encompass all of healthcare, not just nursing. I consider that becoming a physician may only make me want to pound my head into the wall 10x harder (administrative, reimbursement issues, etc).
Please do not bother recommending NP school. I have a huge qualm with the fact that the NP role has become what it has; I completely disagree with that type of independence/power with that lack of education (the online ads for "XYZ University finish your degree 100% online in 18 months"!, do not get me started). I do still consider PA school, but I think at this point that's not the best decision, as I'd see myself wondering why I did that instead of med school.
Also, I'm pretty much set on family medicine and other non-clinical side projects, a bit of an idealist in that "I'm going to help fix this system and really educate, care and make strides for my patients"...yeah... Pros are that I likely won't stress myself too much during school with perfectionist tendencies (also my ISS is Pass/Fail which helps), doesn't seem like residency would be too terrible, making the 7 year plan seem less stressful than it is for a lot of other students. Cons, the volatile healthcare arena, I can't decide if this makes it a worse decision. Fear of debt used to hold me back, but I'd have reasonable ISS tuition, a supportive hubby with income, and some actual savings as well.
Do I feel like I can see myself doing other things besides medicine? Sure. I'm always more life then work, and into spending time outdoors and such to ever have my job be my "passion", it's just not my personality. Would I like other jobs more? I don't think so. I think I could become more passionate about medicine. Do I feel like I'll live the rest of my life thinking "wish I would have done it?" Very possible. Do I feel like it will keep me up at night? So far, it hasn't.
I get that only I can make the call, but at this point after a decade of SDN browsing, working in the industry and talking to colleagues, I still don't feel like I can make a concrete decision. I think my biggest fear would be getting so overwhelmed at some point in medical school and then asking "what the hell did I do all this for?". I also haven't been to school in a long time and have no idea how to study appropriately, or even what kind of habits I hold. On the other hand, some of the most stressful times of my life were most rewarding, in the sense that I had so many things going on and I just cruised on a routine and slammed them out, not having anytime to hyper-psychoanalyze myself or things in my life. Most physician friends that are specialized tell me not to do it, not worth it, do something else. The few family docs I've talked to that really seemed to have their hearts in the right place advised to just go to medical school, there's a place for me in it. I do feel like I only have a few more years left in nursing full-time, and it'll be a sad day to leave both the steady income and patients. I will probably fulfill my other dream of working in a library and take a big bend over as far as salary.
Help, plz. Be sure to post your address and I'll mail you warm cookies and milk for making it through all of my bull**** and torturous amount of run-on sentences.
also - GPA from both Bach about 3.7. Science GPA 3.7. Still need orgo + phys, will likely take calc and biochem as well. Then MCAT. Planning to take 2-3 years to finish all this and save more. Shouldn't be problem to have solid LOR and essay. I have support from administration and big thumbs up from in-state school I plan to attend.
I've been an RN for 5+ years now, I'm a 30yo female. The dream was always med school or PA school, but a lot of socioeconomic "life" stuff sent me make the choice that a 1 yr accelerated BSN program after undergrad was the best decision for my lifestyle (and it was, at the time, no big regrets). While my nursing career hasn't been completely miserable and has definitely provided some OK gigs and decent income, I've never been challenged or stimulated by it, per se. The highlights of my career so far have been doing clinical research and home hospice, both having the commonalities of working 1:1 with patients, more autonomously as a nurse, and a closer relationship with physicians that I respected the hell out of and taught me a lot more than they needed to for what my scope of practice is.
Med school has been a desire for about 10 years now, and about twice a year for a month I think, "it's time to finally bite the bullet and go to medical school". Set an entire plan for the next 10 years, talk to family and colleagues, and get excited. Then I start to think more holistically, scour SDN threads, and freak out over if it'll be the best decision for me, and how I don't know if I want to give up some years of life for medicine. I wonder if I can handle the stress, and the lack of balance. I enjoy my hobbies (hiking/yoga/reading), and am newly married to a husband who I have a lot of fun with and want to travel with. However, I think what's really new for me this year is that I am pretty set on leaving nursing, but I can't imagine leaving the patient care aspect. I'd miss the exposure I have to medicine. That there, is a pretty big signaling flag for me. Other concerns are that many of my personal issues are more ethical and political that encompass all of healthcare, not just nursing. I consider that becoming a physician may only make me want to pound my head into the wall 10x harder (administrative, reimbursement issues, etc).
Please do not bother recommending NP school. I have a huge qualm with the fact that the NP role has become what it has; I completely disagree with that type of independence/power with that lack of education (the online ads for "XYZ University finish your degree 100% online in 18 months"!, do not get me started). I do still consider PA school, but I think at this point that's not the best decision, as I'd see myself wondering why I did that instead of med school.
Also, I'm pretty much set on family medicine and other non-clinical side projects, a bit of an idealist in that "I'm going to help fix this system and really educate, care and make strides for my patients"...yeah... Pros are that I likely won't stress myself too much during school with perfectionist tendencies (also my ISS is Pass/Fail which helps), doesn't seem like residency would be too terrible, making the 7 year plan seem less stressful than it is for a lot of other students. Cons, the volatile healthcare arena, I can't decide if this makes it a worse decision. Fear of debt used to hold me back, but I'd have reasonable ISS tuition, a supportive hubby with income, and some actual savings as well.
Do I feel like I can see myself doing other things besides medicine? Sure. I'm always more life then work, and into spending time outdoors and such to ever have my job be my "passion", it's just not my personality. Would I like other jobs more? I don't think so. I think I could become more passionate about medicine. Do I feel like I'll live the rest of my life thinking "wish I would have done it?" Very possible. Do I feel like it will keep me up at night? So far, it hasn't.
I get that only I can make the call, but at this point after a decade of SDN browsing, working in the industry and talking to colleagues, I still don't feel like I can make a concrete decision. I think my biggest fear would be getting so overwhelmed at some point in medical school and then asking "what the hell did I do all this for?". I also haven't been to school in a long time and have no idea how to study appropriately, or even what kind of habits I hold. On the other hand, some of the most stressful times of my life were most rewarding, in the sense that I had so many things going on and I just cruised on a routine and slammed them out, not having anytime to hyper-psychoanalyze myself or things in my life. Most physician friends that are specialized tell me not to do it, not worth it, do something else. The few family docs I've talked to that really seemed to have their hearts in the right place advised to just go to medical school, there's a place for me in it. I do feel like I only have a few more years left in nursing full-time, and it'll be a sad day to leave both the steady income and patients. I will probably fulfill my other dream of working in a library and take a big bend over as far as salary.
Help, plz. Be sure to post your address and I'll mail you warm cookies and milk for making it through all of my bull**** and torturous amount of run-on sentences.
also - GPA from both Bach about 3.7. Science GPA 3.7. Still need orgo + phys, will likely take calc and biochem as well. Then MCAT. Planning to take 2-3 years to finish all this and save more. Shouldn't be problem to have solid LOR and essay. I have support from administration and big thumbs up from in-state school I plan to attend.
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