I am a PGY2 and 3.5 months into my residency, and I already feel like quitting.
My program doesn't really give didactics and the amount of learning depends on my own study and clinical exposure, which greatly varies from resident to resident.
I have started seeing patients on my own, and have been scolded for missing important red flag signs including retinal detachments. Not to mention I failed an ophtho exam which I took only 3 months into residency. I was also being gossiped behind my back by colleagues about my clinical skills and attitude, and being compared with my co-residents who performed better than me.
I also felt that I had difficulty suturing under microscope. I started wearing glasses since the age of 3. In fact my stereopsis was only a bare minimum to pass (my program had our eyes checked before starting residency and I think mine was 120 arc sec).
I used to be very passionate about ophthalmology but now I just don't feel like I enjoy it anymore. I fear asking questions and no longer have the motivation to read up after work. I would rather attend IM webinars than ophtho ones.
People here say ophtho is a golden ticket and many people want the lifestyle and the calls. However, I just feel that I am not competent or suitable for ophtho.
I have worked in IM during my PGY1 and I enjoyed the hospital setting more than the clinic setting, the feeling of "saving lives" and being in the frontline.
Ophtho just makes me dump everything I've learnt in med school and I'm learning another completely new language.
I understand that IM could be very stressful and the calls are hell, and I am basically a trashcan of medicine. However I do miss that close relationship with patients and their family during my PGY1 year, when I actually "saved" lives.
Any comments would be greatly appreciated.
My program doesn't really give didactics and the amount of learning depends on my own study and clinical exposure, which greatly varies from resident to resident.
I have started seeing patients on my own, and have been scolded for missing important red flag signs including retinal detachments. Not to mention I failed an ophtho exam which I took only 3 months into residency. I was also being gossiped behind my back by colleagues about my clinical skills and attitude, and being compared with my co-residents who performed better than me.
I also felt that I had difficulty suturing under microscope. I started wearing glasses since the age of 3. In fact my stereopsis was only a bare minimum to pass (my program had our eyes checked before starting residency and I think mine was 120 arc sec).
I used to be very passionate about ophthalmology but now I just don't feel like I enjoy it anymore. I fear asking questions and no longer have the motivation to read up after work. I would rather attend IM webinars than ophtho ones.
People here say ophtho is a golden ticket and many people want the lifestyle and the calls. However, I just feel that I am not competent or suitable for ophtho.
I have worked in IM during my PGY1 and I enjoyed the hospital setting more than the clinic setting, the feeling of "saving lives" and being in the frontline.
Ophtho just makes me dump everything I've learnt in med school and I'm learning another completely new language.
I understand that IM could be very stressful and the calls are hell, and I am basically a trashcan of medicine. However I do miss that close relationship with patients and their family during my PGY1 year, when I actually "saved" lives.
Any comments would be greatly appreciated.