I understand. I feel wretched. I am glad I already sent in my AMCAS app, because I am really discouraged and having a lot of trouble getting my other apps out.
It is hard to believe that I actually did well on the MCAT. I can't stand the thought of waiting another 2 months to get the results. I feel sick thinking about it. Intellectually, I know I was doing well on my practice tests so I should have done well. I read other people's posts about how they thought they did really badly and then did well, and that is a small consolation. But I keep waking up thinking about the questions that I didn't know or I know I got wrong. I think, yes, I could be a person who did well on their practice tests and then blew it on the real thing. Sure, I know that I will probably get in somewhere, but that doesn't help.
I think what really bothers me is that I worked so hard for eight months, gave up everything else for the summer and studied for hours, and I think I might not have done well. I think I understand how awful it would feel to get a low score after all that work. I can't believe that I don't have any idea of whether I did well or badly. I hate this scaling business, and I hate the long wait.