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Short a sweet, I hate my job. I hate crying before every shift and stressing out about my job a day or even DAYS before going in! I hate that I am annoying and ask too many questions. I hate the feeling of worrying that I might get fired for sucking so bad. I hate coming in every day and having my coworkers looking at me as if I am a burden. I mean, it's true, but I am also very shy so it makes me just want to cry. I hate how my ph. manager is hinting at terminating me to my face. I hate how I don't learn stuff because it's all so confusing to taught to me too fast. I hate how my managers talk down to me or just plain ignore me.
I hate my job.
I do want to get better. I DO want to love going to work because who wants to go to a job they hate for years on end? I mean, I started in August, but I have my own bills to pay so I can't just quit. I do want to so bad. I have been depressed for a long time. I have been missing the times when I didn't have to go to work, not because I'm lazy, but because my job really makes me uncomfortable to even think about. I love working and keeping busy. I just hate how it's the pharmacy. I wish I was at a pharmacy with no customers, regular work work work. No retail. I hate retail.
Should I reach out to my senior technician? She's the only one who knew me since I was a student intern and she is very professional and friendly. But I also have a feeling that talking about my problem to ANYONE would be a very bad thing because I know you can't do that at a job. You can't tell the people who hired you that you don't think you're fit for the job. You can't tell them that you suck in any way because you told them when you were hired that you could handle it all. That you would be a fast learner and would be an asset to the company. Would anyone one of you talk to your senior tech/manager about 'personal problems'?
I even feel like maybe I should talk to one of the front store managers. I am not very good friend with, but I feel the most comfortable with one of those managers, even more so than the pharmacy staff. But I would hate to say anything that would embarass me.
So. Should I stick this out and hope and try to get better, or should I talk to someone about this?? I would talk about how I feel like I am not "Reaching my potential".
What scares me even more is that the managers have private meeting with each pharmacy technician. They even had a private meeting with me as an intern, which they basically told me I was doing a "good job" but they only said that because I was JUST an intern. Didn't do much. I am so afraid and dread the day when they ask for a private meeting with me and tell me all my mistakes and I have to explain why I suck and why I am going to "get better".
Help me. Please.
I hate my job.
I do want to get better. I DO want to love going to work because who wants to go to a job they hate for years on end? I mean, I started in August, but I have my own bills to pay so I can't just quit. I do want to so bad. I have been depressed for a long time. I have been missing the times when I didn't have to go to work, not because I'm lazy, but because my job really makes me uncomfortable to even think about. I love working and keeping busy. I just hate how it's the pharmacy. I wish I was at a pharmacy with no customers, regular work work work. No retail. I hate retail.
Should I reach out to my senior technician? She's the only one who knew me since I was a student intern and she is very professional and friendly. But I also have a feeling that talking about my problem to ANYONE would be a very bad thing because I know you can't do that at a job. You can't tell the people who hired you that you don't think you're fit for the job. You can't tell them that you suck in any way because you told them when you were hired that you could handle it all. That you would be a fast learner and would be an asset to the company. Would anyone one of you talk to your senior tech/manager about 'personal problems'?
I even feel like maybe I should talk to one of the front store managers. I am not very good friend with, but I feel the most comfortable with one of those managers, even more so than the pharmacy staff. But I would hate to say anything that would embarass me.
So. Should I stick this out and hope and try to get better, or should I talk to someone about this?? I would talk about how I feel like I am not "Reaching my potential".
What scares me even more is that the managers have private meeting with each pharmacy technician. They even had a private meeting with me as an intern, which they basically told me I was doing a "good job" but they only said that because I was JUST an intern. Didn't do much. I am so afraid and dread the day when they ask for a private meeting with me and tell me all my mistakes and I have to explain why I suck and why I am going to "get better".
Help me. Please.