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I just recently formally removed myself from a practice I have been a part of since becoming licensed. This was not an easy decision or quick process, as it took me a period of 6 plus months to strategically slow my role in the practice to get to a place where by me leaving, I was not leaving anyone high and dry. I really did not want to burn any bridges, as the people in the practice very much helped me early on these last few years. However, I could not stay. At the end of the day, I was getting paid essentially 1/3rd of what was billed (if that), and most (if not all) of my work required zero overhead (e.g., second opinion evaluations, not really ever requiring testing, almost always seeing defendants or patients at either hospitals or jails). Overall, I could not ignore the money that I was not getting.
However, even if I had been getting paid more, at the end of the day, I did not enjoy working for these particular individuals. Great teachers, amazing mentors, but not who I would choose to have as bosses. I got to the point where I did not enjoy being told what to do and when to do it, especially as a contractor. I guess what I’m wondering is, has anyone been through something similar career wise, and how have people faired stepping out on their own? Have you felt any guilt? I hope I’m not getting too far into therapy/self-disclosure here, but no joke, I’m feeling a bit guilty and that I have let these mentors down (even though I know I didn’t, as I did not leave them with unfinished work or obligations), but at the end of it all, I was not ever happy working for them, and that has to count for something, right? Guess I’m just looking for some consensual validation lol.
However, even if I had been getting paid more, at the end of the day, I did not enjoy working for these particular individuals. Great teachers, amazing mentors, but not who I would choose to have as bosses. I got to the point where I did not enjoy being told what to do and when to do it, especially as a contractor. I guess what I’m wondering is, has anyone been through something similar career wise, and how have people faired stepping out on their own? Have you felt any guilt? I hope I’m not getting too far into therapy/self-disclosure here, but no joke, I’m feeling a bit guilty and that I have let these mentors down (even though I know I didn’t, as I did not leave them with unfinished work or obligations), but at the end of it all, I was not ever happy working for them, and that has to count for something, right? Guess I’m just looking for some consensual validation lol.