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I've always dreamed to be a physician, but due to many different life situations have been deviating from the path. I am originally from another country, so have always been an international student until recently. While pursuing my first undergrad degree and being pre-med, I wanted to apply to med schools, but was told by a few of them in the state (and outside) that I/my parents would have to provide affidavit of support for 100% of payments (living, tuition, books, etc) for 4 years. Roughly the school I talked to in detail, indicated to me, I needed to show $185,000.00 in finances on a bank account, certified by a bank, otherwise, they would be unable to offer me a decision in either direction (ie: they wouldn't even consider my application). I understand their concern, they need to be paid and being an international student (especially after 9/11) could be harmful to them financially. (Just as a side note, my parents could have taken out a second mortgage but obviously didn't want to take THAT much responsibility). Bottom line is, I had no money.
To keep my visa, I had to keep doing to school, though. I had no plan B. Stupid me, should have researched this earlier, but alas - I didn't... Very disappointed, I graduated in '06 with a 3.4 with a BA in Biology with a minor in Chemistry from a small private college. In college, I did shadowing, research since high school (I went a boarding school for high school), wrote my own grant and it was funded as a first author... etc, etc. and all the other garbage. I was an NCAA athlete with a school record in swimming that still holds today, blah, blah, blah. All of that went out the window when I was told I shouldn't even apply without having financing. Around that time I was also supposed to take the MCAT. I wrote my name on it, and even though I studied for it, I didn't really care and bombed it. I got an 11 (terrifying, I know!). But I knew my life in medicine (something I had worked super hard for for a while) was over. My parents gave me no support (well, they never really did, but now it's almost like their talks proved true).
Anyway. I had to keep going to school. So I applied for nursing. At the time, the specialty was in need (well, it still is, just not officially) to the point where they would give me a green card (=permanent residence) just if I had a diploma! I got all ambitious, thinking that I would get my green card and make myself be happy in nursing, and with a scholarship was admitted to an accelerated nursing program in a top private univ. in my state that would give me a Masters in Nursing and a Bachelor's in Nursing after only 3 years. I was never excited about it, but thought this was my way out. My grandmother had a stroke that summer and around the time of my admission to nursing passed away. I was devastated. I could not go to visit her while she was laying in bed paralyzed with my family taking care of her because I knew I wouldn't be able to return (that part is a long story, but it's not important at this point). I still haven't been back (going this year), and ridden by guilt, sadness, depression, my grades bottomed out. I think I had a 2.4 my first and last semester at that school. I don't really have many memories from that semester - just remember going to school, studying and then eating and going to bed. I transferred out, not wanting to be a nurse practitioner, depressed about my grandmother and thinking I'd have to go back to my home country and my quest in US is over.
I applied to just a Bachelor's degree program because I thought, well, I hate to be a nurse practitioner and I don't like nursing, but I need to finish it because it bothered me very much that I didn't do well and I'm just one of those people who likes to finish what I had started.
I'm doing well in school, but have been emotionally through a big a struggle. I work in an ICU as an intern and love the patients, but greatly dislike the philosophy of nursing (never really liked it anyway) and have been very limited by what I can do at work and how I think. The questions I ask in class almost always receive the answer "you don't need to know that for the test" and my nursing instructors' crude and jumbled messy interpretation of microbiology and biochemistry greatly hurts me when I hear their gross misunderstanding (or lack of understanding) really of basic micro and biochem concepts (I love Organic and biochem).
Anyway, to make the long story short, my grades in nursing are better, my current GPA is 3.6 and I am graduating in May. Since all this happened, I met a wonderful guy and got married and have really had a turn around in my life (well sort of). I learned to believe in myself again and have seriously considered going back and trying one more time for medical school since now my international status is not longer an issue. My husband is fully supportive and has offered to help me study and have me not work so I can retake the MCAT and actually try to do well on it.
I know I've made some mistakes (and big ones) but I am wondering how bad of a hindrance they will be to my admissions (MD/DO/Caribbean med schools). So I'm wondering about your opinion.
My stats: Bio BA GPA 3.4, science (never calculated, not sure), MCAT (currently a pitiful 11, obviously not going to apply with that, but will retake and hope for upper 20's if not low 30s, but the 11 will still be on my record ), nursing GPA from grad program 2.4, current Bachelor's nursing GPA 3.6, hoping to raise to at least 3.7. Realistically shooting for Caribbean, but hoping that if my MCAT is higher than average, I could potentially apply to DO or MD schools in US.
I know the extracurriculars won't outweigh my grades, but I have 2 publications in science journals, 6 years of research experience, my own grant where I'm a 1st author doing research at a local medical school, shadowing in the past, currently working (for the past 1.5 years) in pediatric ICU as an intern and will be a nurse there after I graduate. After several conversations with our attendings, they're hoping to help me get involved with some shadowing, but more probably doing actual clinical research, so they can write me a faculty recommendation for our local school (and obviously others). Hoping to become a state resident by the time I apply.
What do you think?
(I've read many other posts and I know some people can be very honest to the point of rudeness. I would greatly appreciate constructive criticism and honest but polite advice. I roam this forum like you: to find helpful hints, not disruptive comments.) Thanks!
To keep my visa, I had to keep doing to school, though. I had no plan B. Stupid me, should have researched this earlier, but alas - I didn't... Very disappointed, I graduated in '06 with a 3.4 with a BA in Biology with a minor in Chemistry from a small private college. In college, I did shadowing, research since high school (I went a boarding school for high school), wrote my own grant and it was funded as a first author... etc, etc. and all the other garbage. I was an NCAA athlete with a school record in swimming that still holds today, blah, blah, blah. All of that went out the window when I was told I shouldn't even apply without having financing. Around that time I was also supposed to take the MCAT. I wrote my name on it, and even though I studied for it, I didn't really care and bombed it. I got an 11 (terrifying, I know!). But I knew my life in medicine (something I had worked super hard for for a while) was over. My parents gave me no support (well, they never really did, but now it's almost like their talks proved true).
Anyway. I had to keep going to school. So I applied for nursing. At the time, the specialty was in need (well, it still is, just not officially) to the point where they would give me a green card (=permanent residence) just if I had a diploma! I got all ambitious, thinking that I would get my green card and make myself be happy in nursing, and with a scholarship was admitted to an accelerated nursing program in a top private univ. in my state that would give me a Masters in Nursing and a Bachelor's in Nursing after only 3 years. I was never excited about it, but thought this was my way out. My grandmother had a stroke that summer and around the time of my admission to nursing passed away. I was devastated. I could not go to visit her while she was laying in bed paralyzed with my family taking care of her because I knew I wouldn't be able to return (that part is a long story, but it's not important at this point). I still haven't been back (going this year), and ridden by guilt, sadness, depression, my grades bottomed out. I think I had a 2.4 my first and last semester at that school. I don't really have many memories from that semester - just remember going to school, studying and then eating and going to bed. I transferred out, not wanting to be a nurse practitioner, depressed about my grandmother and thinking I'd have to go back to my home country and my quest in US is over.
I applied to just a Bachelor's degree program because I thought, well, I hate to be a nurse practitioner and I don't like nursing, but I need to finish it because it bothered me very much that I didn't do well and I'm just one of those people who likes to finish what I had started.
I'm doing well in school, but have been emotionally through a big a struggle. I work in an ICU as an intern and love the patients, but greatly dislike the philosophy of nursing (never really liked it anyway) and have been very limited by what I can do at work and how I think. The questions I ask in class almost always receive the answer "you don't need to know that for the test" and my nursing instructors' crude and jumbled messy interpretation of microbiology and biochemistry greatly hurts me when I hear their gross misunderstanding (or lack of understanding) really of basic micro and biochem concepts (I love Organic and biochem).
Anyway, to make the long story short, my grades in nursing are better, my current GPA is 3.6 and I am graduating in May. Since all this happened, I met a wonderful guy and got married and have really had a turn around in my life (well sort of). I learned to believe in myself again and have seriously considered going back and trying one more time for medical school since now my international status is not longer an issue. My husband is fully supportive and has offered to help me study and have me not work so I can retake the MCAT and actually try to do well on it.
I know I've made some mistakes (and big ones) but I am wondering how bad of a hindrance they will be to my admissions (MD/DO/Caribbean med schools). So I'm wondering about your opinion.
My stats: Bio BA GPA 3.4, science (never calculated, not sure), MCAT (currently a pitiful 11, obviously not going to apply with that, but will retake and hope for upper 20's if not low 30s, but the 11 will still be on my record ), nursing GPA from grad program 2.4, current Bachelor's nursing GPA 3.6, hoping to raise to at least 3.7. Realistically shooting for Caribbean, but hoping that if my MCAT is higher than average, I could potentially apply to DO or MD schools in US.
I know the extracurriculars won't outweigh my grades, but I have 2 publications in science journals, 6 years of research experience, my own grant where I'm a 1st author doing research at a local medical school, shadowing in the past, currently working (for the past 1.5 years) in pediatric ICU as an intern and will be a nurse there after I graduate. After several conversations with our attendings, they're hoping to help me get involved with some shadowing, but more probably doing actual clinical research, so they can write me a faculty recommendation for our local school (and obviously others). Hoping to become a state resident by the time I apply.
What do you think?
(I've read many other posts and I know some people can be very honest to the point of rudeness. I would greatly appreciate constructive criticism and honest but polite advice. I roam this forum like you: to find helpful hints, not disruptive comments.) Thanks!