- Joined
- Jan 21, 2004
- Messages
- 1
- Reaction score
- 0
Hi everyone,
I am currently a PGY-2 at an FM program, and am growing increasingly unhappy at this program, to the point that some days I don't know if I can last the 17 months left til graduation. There are multiple FM programs in the city where I'm training and I'd love to move over to one of those but I'm not sure how that would go over with my current director (who's the main reason I'm so miserable, though there are some other factors as well.) Does anyone have any thoughts on this? Is it possible to change to a program in the same city, or would that make me look really bad to my current program? My problem is, I love FM, love where I live and the friends I've made, and would therefore love to stay here--unfortunately, my PD is the passive-aggressive type who's very capable of giving me a bad letter of rec, or bad-mouthing me to other programs, either in this city or elsewhere if he were to find out I want to leave (I know the other faculty would be supportive though--I have great relationships with them, and have gotten no complaints from them.)
My other concern is, I don't really have a good "external" reason (family, illness, etc.) to want to leave, and am concerned I'll come out looking like a "whiny" resident. It mainly boils down to the PD and one other faculty member who are driving me crazy, as well as some other issues, eg. bad rotations and not having adequate procedures, deliveries, etc., that I expected to obtain when I interviewed here. I'm taking steps on my own to correct the latter issues, but as far as the former, it's really tough to get myself to work everyday and provide good patient care when I know I'll be constantly criticized/berated, talked about behind my back, etc. I've talked to a couple faculty about my issues with the director and there's not much they can do (in fact, some of them left as well when this guy joined the residency.) I'm also not a "quitter", and always finish what I start, and hope to do the same with my residency program, but my current stress is starting to interfere w/ my education (as well as my personal sanity) and I don't know how much longer I can tolerate these working conditions.
Anyway, thanks for reading. I'd appreciate any advice anyone has to offer about switching to a more humane program, esp. in the same city and w/o burning bridges. FYI, when I interviewed at this program, they had not yet hired the current director and had different hospital policies in place re: procedures, etc., so the picture I got when I interviewed was much different than what I'm experiencing now. (I never would've ranked this program if I knew what I know now.)
I am currently a PGY-2 at an FM program, and am growing increasingly unhappy at this program, to the point that some days I don't know if I can last the 17 months left til graduation. There are multiple FM programs in the city where I'm training and I'd love to move over to one of those but I'm not sure how that would go over with my current director (who's the main reason I'm so miserable, though there are some other factors as well.) Does anyone have any thoughts on this? Is it possible to change to a program in the same city, or would that make me look really bad to my current program? My problem is, I love FM, love where I live and the friends I've made, and would therefore love to stay here--unfortunately, my PD is the passive-aggressive type who's very capable of giving me a bad letter of rec, or bad-mouthing me to other programs, either in this city or elsewhere if he were to find out I want to leave (I know the other faculty would be supportive though--I have great relationships with them, and have gotten no complaints from them.)
My other concern is, I don't really have a good "external" reason (family, illness, etc.) to want to leave, and am concerned I'll come out looking like a "whiny" resident. It mainly boils down to the PD and one other faculty member who are driving me crazy, as well as some other issues, eg. bad rotations and not having adequate procedures, deliveries, etc., that I expected to obtain when I interviewed here. I'm taking steps on my own to correct the latter issues, but as far as the former, it's really tough to get myself to work everyday and provide good patient care when I know I'll be constantly criticized/berated, talked about behind my back, etc. I've talked to a couple faculty about my issues with the director and there's not much they can do (in fact, some of them left as well when this guy joined the residency.) I'm also not a "quitter", and always finish what I start, and hope to do the same with my residency program, but my current stress is starting to interfere w/ my education (as well as my personal sanity) and I don't know how much longer I can tolerate these working conditions.
Anyway, thanks for reading. I'd appreciate any advice anyone has to offer about switching to a more humane program, esp. in the same city and w/o burning bridges. FYI, when I interviewed at this program, they had not yet hired the current director and had different hospital policies in place re: procedures, etc., so the picture I got when I interviewed was much different than what I'm experiencing now. (I never would've ranked this program if I knew what I know now.)
