attaca
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I'm finishing up my first academic year as tenure-track faculty at an R1 (prior to that, I did a research postdoc/research scientist thing for two years, followed by a year as a VAP at a small teaching school), and I'm increasingly wondering if I'm cognitively capable of the level of work that this job requires. I constantly feel like I'm struggling to meet the expectations for the amount and quality of work we are expected to do, and while I always did well at research before (getting 3-5 articles a year, about half of them first-author), I'm realizing that the demands were much lower and the supports were much higher compared to what I'm experiencing now. I did a good bit of LD assessment in grad school, and I saw a lot of my clients hit "walls" when task demands simply outstripped their abilities, and I feel like I'm hitting that same type of wall--not in an LD way, just in a "I don't know if i have the ability to do this" way. I have mentors and collaborators who manage to clear these types of expectations with ease, so I know that they aren't unreasonable, but I feel like I'm scrambling over the same hurdles that they are clearing with room to spare.
Advice? At what point do consider that maybe I'm just not cut out for this level of academia?
Advice? At what point do consider that maybe I'm just not cut out for this level of academia?