OK, 3 months are done, and although i love it, i feel like someone threw me down a flight of stairs and kicked me repeatedly. I knew being a surgery intern would be rough, but i had no idea what it's really like. This month i'm on call 1 in 3, I'm on 3/4 weekends. The call i'm doing this month is horrible - i cover about 70 gen surg and thoracic surg beds as well as an 8 bed step-down. There is a senior resident at home on back-up (but he doesn't want me to call unless someone needs to go to the OR); i'm the only one in the hospital. i haven't slept yet on call. The patients all go crazy at midnight and try to rip out their foley's and NGs. I should put Haldol and lorazepam in the drinking water cause i seem to be giving it to everyone. Everyone is either dry and needs a bolus or are wet and need lasix. The nurses call at 3am just to tell me that some patients potassium is normal,... I put my first IJ in with my senior explaining how over the phone as the patient's pressure dropped lower and lower and she became more and more obtunded. And it goes on and on. There never seems to be an end to it. Every day i feel stupid, incompetant, weak, worthless, and useless.
I'm sorry, i'm post-call and on call again tomorrow. I just needed to rant. How are you other new PGY1s doing out there?
I'm sorry, i'm post-call and on call again tomorrow. I just needed to rant. How are you other new PGY1s doing out there?