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Resigning sounds better, but my career feels equally screwed. I will likely not even be able to get a general med. license in my beloved home state because of this. The lawyer said "I could get a license in another state, or maybe get a physician in training license". Both depressing options.
I have stopped trying to find a position after 7 months. Resigning is a sucky option, too. I say, if you think you can learn at your program, try to fight it. I left because there was just no way I could learn under those hostile circumstances. If you attempt to stay, it may seriously hurt your marriage. It ruined my relationship, bc I became so depersonalized thru all this.
Anyone else who has hope or insight for me as well, please offer!
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Once outside, looking in, the whole situation changes. The NRMP, which I regard as anti-competitive and likely would have been found to be in violation of the Sherman Act had not a Senator with vested interest in HCA hospitals added a rider to an unrelated budget act, is there to support programs.
Above someone stated that the match contract is binding upon programs and residents. This is true, but the NRMP does not equally enforce its violations sanctions against programs. Despite a determination that there was a preponderance of the evidence that an institution had committed an NRMP contract violation by (the arbitration panel) the NRMP ignored this and refused to enforce its contract against the program and institution. I had the TY PD slander me, and my PGY2 program violated the match based on that slander. The situation was settled and I did get my position, but it was 2 years late. Fortunately I had other skills and financial resources, and a damn fine attorney.
As for the Wang situation, that is tragic. The PD at my TY institution screwed similarly a senior categorical resident who nearly did something similar, but for the fact that I was attuned to this resident at the time, and knew there was a serious problem, probably would have happened.
Fortunately, in no small part due to the excellent training in a psychiatry rotation and an exceptional attending psychiatrist at that same institution that tried to screw me, I noted the s/s of major depression, intervened, and I am now a somewhat reluctant gun owner and no one was hurt, likely saving the lives of three people. This is a very real problem and a potentially devastating psychological response. It is also not a new problem. A similar incident took place outside University Hospital cafeteria at Univ. Michigan in the mid 1980s, resulting in two deaths and a life imprisonment without parole.
That former resident took 2+ years to find another position, with my and other attendings help and counseling and is doing well in private practice. Very well in fact.
As for getting back in once you are out, it does depend on whether you made the first full PGY1 year or not. If you did, you do have a better chance. You have been fire tested. If not, you have a higher mountain to climb. You cannot go through the NRMP, for it won't help you and many PDs are looking for reasons to DNR the hundreds of ERAS papers.
When I was "between" jobs, I looked at a couple of programs, secure in the knowledge that I was to matriculate into my chosen specialty residency, albeit delayed.
At the interview for one program, I realized it was a crosslisted dual specialty program with zero interest in GME, and 100% interest in a warm body to take Q2/Q3 call. As I sat in a sea of FMGs during the interview and was offered the position, I realized that I could be jumping from a frying pan into a very hot fire. I chose to step aside. The other was not much better. Be careful. The third was a fantastic program and a good experience until I matriculated into my chosen profession. I had great sadness leaving that program for my main interest and to this day look back fondly on that program.
If you are truly interested in clinical medicine, then 7 months is not adequate time. Going through the NRMP is not a good option. You, and those of you who are in this situation must move outside the box, get off the train and travel the back roads. My mentee followed this advice, and by personally visiting program, discussing this with them, ultimately he did find a PD who was willing to give him a chance outside the NRMP on a position that was created out of cycle. It takes a lot of luck, a lot of perspiration, some trust, a willingness to be an aggressive salesman of the hardest commodity there is to sell: yourself, especially after a bruising experience, such as yours.
If you truly want back in, be prepared for many rejections, because, although luck is a factor, you can make your own luck. Go back to your medical school dean, discuss the situation as frankly and as candidly as you can with him/her. You will have to travel on your own nickel. My friend mapped out a path, called for appointments to discuss the programs he was interested in trying to get into, drove and camped to save cash, worked odd jobs to pay bills, and essentially became a nomad for about 2 years before he finally hit on this now successfully completed program. Each path back may be somewhat different.
You have the advantage of good board scores. Go back to that institution and ask those whom you have had a good and successful working relationship for good letters of reference. Ask them if they can write a good one. If they can't ask them for a candid discussion of why not and what they think you can do to remedy where you fall short. This can be a very beneficial exercise, as you will clearly know what others are thinking, how you are perceived and will aid you in two things: showing insight to potential future PDs and disarming disingenuous comments.
I never sign liability waivers for letters of reference. If an institution or credentialing office insists, I amend the waiver to include the words, "provided such is provided in good faith." I do not believe they promote candor: if a potential letter writer cannot be candid to my face, then what promise do I have that they will be honest behind my back?
Sorry for the missive. There's a lot to this dirty business. Wish you well.