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Hi Everyone!
First of all, I want to commend everyone on this AMAZING message board. I frequent another pre-med/med discussion group, and I always come away from it so utterly depressed - the people on there are more interested in belittling each other than in exchanging information that's actually valuable! I was beginning to develop a perception of the future medical professionals as narcissistic, selfish, and interested only in the monetary rewards of a career in medicine. The information and people on here, however, are so helpful and such a resource -- thank you so much!!!!!!
My "predicament," if you'll even call it that, is pretty silly. I'm in the position that most pre-meds are- I don't ever, ever feel like I'm "doing enough." I work and I study and deprive myself of sleep 24-7, and yet, while I'm in a fuzzy, headachey, one-more-chem-test-and-I'll-die state, I still feel like others are doing more. I obsess over the tiniest things that could affect my GPA. I suppose it's b/c ALL you ever hear is that it's impossible to get into medical school, plus I'm at a school with an enormous -- and cuthroat -- premed population. My fiance finally sat me down this weekend and expressed his fears that if I don't lighten up, I'm either going to break in half or fall very ill. I want to take his advice, but at the same time, I'm terrified - everything that I hear tells me that if I relax my grip, my chances will be shot. I don't know what to do. I'm always feeling burnt out, but doesn't that come with the territory when you want to become a part of such a competitive field?? Isn't that what's expected?
I'm just afraid of "getting lost" in the overwhelming number of applicants,and I need someone to tell me where to draw the line - what will make me stand out, so that I don't have to worry anymore (or at least worry less). I know that this sounds so silly and immature, and I deeply apologize. But I'm losing sleep over it (of which I enjoy precious little anyway). Several people have said that if I "WANT" it badly enough - if I really work - I have the potential for Harvard. With people telling me such things, I'm so terrified of blowing it. Plus, I think of the idea of exploring medicine - my dream field! - at such a place, and it thrills me! I know Harvard is a far, far reach, but if it were possible, and I blew it when I had a chance...it would be such a waste. At the same time,I don't want to have a nervous breakdown before I graduate college. I don't know how much of the anxiety is worth it and necessary.
I would sincerely appreciate ANY advice that you could offer me. And I truly hope that I don't sound pretentious or spoiled. I'm just stressed beyond belief.
Thank you so very much for your time. Take Care, and Happy Holidays to all!!!!!
- Kate
First of all, I want to commend everyone on this AMAZING message board. I frequent another pre-med/med discussion group, and I always come away from it so utterly depressed - the people on there are more interested in belittling each other than in exchanging information that's actually valuable! I was beginning to develop a perception of the future medical professionals as narcissistic, selfish, and interested only in the monetary rewards of a career in medicine. The information and people on here, however, are so helpful and such a resource -- thank you so much!!!!!!
My "predicament," if you'll even call it that, is pretty silly. I'm in the position that most pre-meds are- I don't ever, ever feel like I'm "doing enough." I work and I study and deprive myself of sleep 24-7, and yet, while I'm in a fuzzy, headachey, one-more-chem-test-and-I'll-die state, I still feel like others are doing more. I obsess over the tiniest things that could affect my GPA. I suppose it's b/c ALL you ever hear is that it's impossible to get into medical school, plus I'm at a school with an enormous -- and cuthroat -- premed population. My fiance finally sat me down this weekend and expressed his fears that if I don't lighten up, I'm either going to break in half or fall very ill. I want to take his advice, but at the same time, I'm terrified - everything that I hear tells me that if I relax my grip, my chances will be shot. I don't know what to do. I'm always feeling burnt out, but doesn't that come with the territory when you want to become a part of such a competitive field?? Isn't that what's expected?
I'm just afraid of "getting lost" in the overwhelming number of applicants,and I need someone to tell me where to draw the line - what will make me stand out, so that I don't have to worry anymore (or at least worry less). I know that this sounds so silly and immature, and I deeply apologize. But I'm losing sleep over it (of which I enjoy precious little anyway). Several people have said that if I "WANT" it badly enough - if I really work - I have the potential for Harvard. With people telling me such things, I'm so terrified of blowing it. Plus, I think of the idea of exploring medicine - my dream field! - at such a place, and it thrills me! I know Harvard is a far, far reach, but if it were possible, and I blew it when I had a chance...it would be such a waste. At the same time,I don't want to have a nervous breakdown before I graduate college. I don't know how much of the anxiety is worth it and necessary.
I would sincerely appreciate ANY advice that you could offer me. And I truly hope that I don't sound pretentious or spoiled. I'm just stressed beyond belief.
Thank you so very much for your time. Take Care, and Happy Holidays to all!!!!!
- Kate