I knew I wanted to be "an animal doctor" by the time I was 6 years old. I also wanted to be an artist and write books, and my favorite subjects as a kid were art and science (especially anything involving animals or insects).
But by my freshman year in high school, I had serious problems with math--I just didn't get it, even with extra help and tutoring. I also had attention problems, and trouble with keeping things organized, which didn't help. It was also a turbulent time for my family, and I was going through that godawful teenage hormonal surge. So between falling behind in math (and deciding I was just no good at it) and being so emotionally cranked up all the time, I decided I wasn't smart or tough enough to be a vet. I did get plenty of encouragement to be an artist, however, so that's what I did.
I'm 42, and have never stopped wishing I could be a vet. In my 30s, I earned a BA in history and anthropology, and got accepted to grad school for history--only to decide I didn't want to be an academic. And while I'm more than good enough as an artist to make a living at it, I really don't want to, because painting for money sucks all the fun out of it.
Since last April, I've been caring for a chronically ill cat. One of his new nicknames is Mr. Murphy, because anything that can go wrong with a cat seems to go wrong with him; he has a laundry list of ailments, including stage 4 CRF and IBS. When he was first dx'ed with CRF, I had no idea if I could handle managing his illness or not. Ten months later, not only is he doing extremely well, but I feel perfectly confident that I can handle anything else that comes up.
Recently, a couple of the techs at my vet's joked that I should just give up and join their ranks, as I've already learned so much from nursing this one poor guy--and I seriously considered it. I looked into the nearest tech program and thought, "I could definitely handle that!" But as I looked into being a tech, I realized that what I still really wanted to be, more than anything, was a vet.
In order to become a vet, however, I have to take all of the science prereqs, starting from the ground up. I'm deficient in everything--math, chem, and anything more than the most basic biology. I also have no veterinary or animal experience beyond caring for my own cats. The earliest I'll be able to matriculate is in 2012, and that's pushing it. But I'm determined to do it; unlike my 14-year-old self, I know I'm smart and tough enough to be a vet, and when I really want something I'm capable of moving heaven and earth to make it happen. I've done it before, and see no reason why I can't do it again.
And if it all really does turn out to be too much, and becoming a vet really is beyond my reach? Then I'll be able to go into the tech program and be perfectly happy with that. But I'm going for that DVM--having never stopped wanting it, I know I will regret it if I don't.