I am...umm....in a very vulnerable state. I explained why I wanted to pursue law to my parents and 2 hours later here I am with snot and tear stains on my shirt. Yes I was chewed out big time. I eventually cried like a baby. My parents are the classic example of where the child is forced to become a doctor. I've been blackmailed. I am not a tough guy. I pretend to be but in reality a softie. I don't have the life skills to succeed without parental assistance. I was raised over-protectively so I couldn't develop the skills to leave and become independent. If I want housing, financial assistance, I have to pursue medicine. Leaving is not an option. I will have nothing. I honestly would end up homeless.
@Goro may think that it's easy to just stand up to things like this, but in reality it's not practical. It's the equivalent of telling someone in poverty to get a job and stop living off welfare. I was raised in an environment where these skills were overlooked or withheld to guarantee my servitude to them.
I would not survive the real world. Honestly I'm a high-functioning autist. @leesan23 is my alt account where I've posted sensitive questions. I will not lie. I am not a troll, even though I tell myself that I am to feel better. I simply pathetic and immature. I wish I was never an avid reader. I wish that I never discovered SDN. Had I remained ignorant, I would've been better off. I wouldn't be so conflicted in my studies. I wouldn't worry about the future of the profession. You can tell by my fragmented sentences how hard I try to cover up for my imperfections. It takes me longer to write these posts than the normal user would. For now, I have no other choice than to stick to my pre-health studies. Whether or not I succeed in getting in to med/dental school doesn't matter. At least I will have tried. Again, I wish I was ignorant. Whatever that effect is called where learning more tells you how much you don't know definitely applies. There is no escape—for any of us.
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