Hi everyone,
I never thought in my life that I will be dong postings like this in my life.
About myself i short.I am a FMG.I have score high 99 in both USMLE step 1 and 2 and was lucky to get in to Transitional year program in Midwest. I also have Green card. All thsse characteristic makes me a very good candidate.
I tried for Radiology and for highly reputed IM program in California.I focussed in California since my family was there. I was disappointed with the interview since getting residency in California for a FMG is difficult and hence when I came to know from Wife about a neurology pgy2 opening in a very malignant program in California in which she was already suffering.I applied there since I was confident about my abilities and since my wife was there and we wanted to stay in California I applied there and was unlucky that I got in it.
I have always been an excellent student and resident. I always knew that first couple of month in any residency are very crucial hence i started reading a lot and started asking question. Somehow Unknowingly I landed on wrong side of a VA attending. In VA we have very few pt and whole month of rotation I must have seen 5-6 pt's which includes consults.
The attending I do not know why failed me in rotation. I was extremely disappointed. I was not expecting a great evaluation but failing me was over kill.
In Neurology we do 2 month of intern month and then promoted to senior but since I failed rotation they made me repeat 4 month. Since I did not agree with the attending hence I appealed against that stating that there is not enough time and not enough pt to take such a drastic decision especially considering my excellent record in past.But I realized today that this was biggest blunder I did in whole residency.
I worked with a attending for 3 and half day when I started and other attending who happened to be chairman in weekly outpatient setting and must ave interacted with him 5 times.They became judge for appeal and guess what the moment I appealed against the decision both of them gave me bad evaluation.So the decision was already made even before the appeal process was started.I was appealing only against that particular attending but later realized that it was considered against program since the decision was made by program director. It backfired at me.
Well I did alright for next 2 month but I was extremely disappointed and started looking for position outside.
When my program Director came to know about it she got very upset and though I did good in 3 month she refused to promote to senior level and told me that they won't reniew my contract for next year .She told me that I will get PGY2 year completion and If i want to pursue Neurology I can join PGY3 anywhere. I was disappointed but since I was anyways planning not continue in program hence I was OK with decision.
I have applied for vacation during December long time back since I wanted to attend interview.
Later when she came to know that I am having position In PGY3 suddenly she changed her mind and called me on December 28th morning and shocked me by saying that she has decided to end my contract and today is my last day of work. The reason was that I took unauthorized vacation since she never signed my vacation request though I have submitted my request month before to program coordinator and due to lack of clinical judgment. She gave me 1 hour to decide if I want to quit or want to get fired.The advantage of being fired is that I will get 1 month of salary.She took my pager and ID. She gave me LOR which I asked her before which was 2 liner stating."He has finished successfully 5 month of neurology. She is concerned about my clinical Judgment." Can you imagine this LOR. Which PD is going to consider me for any position. And she made a big statement "she is disappointed at herself as program director".
This is so messed up.After couple of days i recovered back and appealed against the decision. This time it went forward as Judicial review. This was most anxiety and scariest moment of my life.
When I got the notice I was really really scared and did not want to face it but I motivated myself and went to Judicial review.
It went pretty good since my program Director has no concrete evidence.I also showed them my TY evaluation which stated that I am excellent resident.
I am still waiting for the decision. It is going to come on Monday. Well I am pretty positive that if they are fair it will be in my favor but knowing these people I know like everything it will also be unfair
I think everyday what went wrong. How can people be so evil that they want to destroy someone's career. Everyone is shocked with it but no 1 can do anything.When I talked to attending with whom I worked in VA later,he kept telling me that I am doing great and he was not sure why the other attending did not like me.But when I asked him to write it down he won't do it since he said that he has to work in department and he does not wish to go against his colleague since he will be retiring soon. Though it was his responsibility to give me evaluation.He never gave me evaluation till now. Can you guys imagine it.
Now I am going again for ERAS with new LOR from my TY attending and had some good interview and will match somewhere. But I lost 2 important year of my life. Imagine the hard work,money I have invested in my career.Getting 99 in both steps are not uncommon but it needs lots of hard work and being a good test take is not enough to achieve it twice. All my ambition in life and my confidence is shattered. And most important this blotch will remain in my career.
I will be writing outcome of the appeal and soon will add the transcript of appeal since I want everyone to know how unfair system can be.
I have read many posting about resident suffering and since till now everything was going smoothly for me hence I always use to jump to conclusion that it must be residents mistake but now i can really understand what they went through and it is not always that residents are on fault. Some attending do have malignant and sadist personality.
I am asking everyone's opinion for following question.
1. I have couple of offers for PGY2 since I have done TY but everyone is letter asking from current PD. What should I do??
2. I am sure after this experience i will not be in this condition ever but I was wondering if this part of my career will come in my way of getting fellowship??
3. Is there any way by which we can report this program so that what happened with me does not happen to anyone else??
I never thought in my life that I will be dong postings like this in my life.
About myself i short.I am a FMG.I have score high 99 in both USMLE step 1 and 2 and was lucky to get in to Transitional year program in Midwest. I also have Green card. All thsse characteristic makes me a very good candidate.
I tried for Radiology and for highly reputed IM program in California.I focussed in California since my family was there. I was disappointed with the interview since getting residency in California for a FMG is difficult and hence when I came to know from Wife about a neurology pgy2 opening in a very malignant program in California in which she was already suffering.I applied there since I was confident about my abilities and since my wife was there and we wanted to stay in California I applied there and was unlucky that I got in it.
I have always been an excellent student and resident. I always knew that first couple of month in any residency are very crucial hence i started reading a lot and started asking question. Somehow Unknowingly I landed on wrong side of a VA attending. In VA we have very few pt and whole month of rotation I must have seen 5-6 pt's which includes consults.
The attending I do not know why failed me in rotation. I was extremely disappointed. I was not expecting a great evaluation but failing me was over kill.
In Neurology we do 2 month of intern month and then promoted to senior but since I failed rotation they made me repeat 4 month. Since I did not agree with the attending hence I appealed against that stating that there is not enough time and not enough pt to take such a drastic decision especially considering my excellent record in past.But I realized today that this was biggest blunder I did in whole residency.
I worked with a attending for 3 and half day when I started and other attending who happened to be chairman in weekly outpatient setting and must ave interacted with him 5 times.They became judge for appeal and guess what the moment I appealed against the decision both of them gave me bad evaluation.So the decision was already made even before the appeal process was started.I was appealing only against that particular attending but later realized that it was considered against program since the decision was made by program director. It backfired at me.
Well I did alright for next 2 month but I was extremely disappointed and started looking for position outside.
When my program Director came to know about it she got very upset and though I did good in 3 month she refused to promote to senior level and told me that they won't reniew my contract for next year .She told me that I will get PGY2 year completion and If i want to pursue Neurology I can join PGY3 anywhere. I was disappointed but since I was anyways planning not continue in program hence I was OK with decision.
I have applied for vacation during December long time back since I wanted to attend interview.
Later when she came to know that I am having position In PGY3 suddenly she changed her mind and called me on December 28th morning and shocked me by saying that she has decided to end my contract and today is my last day of work. The reason was that I took unauthorized vacation since she never signed my vacation request though I have submitted my request month before to program coordinator and due to lack of clinical judgment. She gave me 1 hour to decide if I want to quit or want to get fired.The advantage of being fired is that I will get 1 month of salary.She took my pager and ID. She gave me LOR which I asked her before which was 2 liner stating."He has finished successfully 5 month of neurology. She is concerned about my clinical Judgment." Can you imagine this LOR. Which PD is going to consider me for any position. And she made a big statement "she is disappointed at herself as program director".
This is so messed up.After couple of days i recovered back and appealed against the decision. This time it went forward as Judicial review. This was most anxiety and scariest moment of my life.
When I got the notice I was really really scared and did not want to face it but I motivated myself and went to Judicial review.
It went pretty good since my program Director has no concrete evidence.I also showed them my TY evaluation which stated that I am excellent resident.
I am still waiting for the decision. It is going to come on Monday. Well I am pretty positive that if they are fair it will be in my favor but knowing these people I know like everything it will also be unfair
I think everyday what went wrong. How can people be so evil that they want to destroy someone's career. Everyone is shocked with it but no 1 can do anything.When I talked to attending with whom I worked in VA later,he kept telling me that I am doing great and he was not sure why the other attending did not like me.But when I asked him to write it down he won't do it since he said that he has to work in department and he does not wish to go against his colleague since he will be retiring soon. Though it was his responsibility to give me evaluation.He never gave me evaluation till now. Can you guys imagine it.
Now I am going again for ERAS with new LOR from my TY attending and had some good interview and will match somewhere. But I lost 2 important year of my life. Imagine the hard work,money I have invested in my career.Getting 99 in both steps are not uncommon but it needs lots of hard work and being a good test take is not enough to achieve it twice. All my ambition in life and my confidence is shattered. And most important this blotch will remain in my career.
I will be writing outcome of the appeal and soon will add the transcript of appeal since I want everyone to know how unfair system can be.
I have read many posting about resident suffering and since till now everything was going smoothly for me hence I always use to jump to conclusion that it must be residents mistake but now i can really understand what they went through and it is not always that residents are on fault. Some attending do have malignant and sadist personality.
I am asking everyone's opinion for following question.
1. I have couple of offers for PGY2 since I have done TY but everyone is letter asking from current PD. What should I do??
2. I am sure after this experience i will not be in this condition ever but I was wondering if this part of my career will come in my way of getting fellowship??
3. Is there any way by which we can report this program so that what happened with me does not happen to anyone else??
