how would any of your opinions change if you also knew the information that:
I am not married
Not in a relationship
the father is someone i dated a year ago who will help financially and "play with the kid" but actually is pushing abortion.
any new thoughts about a prego single mother intern?
My opinion doesn't change. I still say don't tell until after you match, and if you decide to take a year off (which was wonderful for me), you can still defer loan payments.
You'll need help though. I'm married, and you'd think that two adults could take care of one baby without much help. Most of my girlfriends are single moms, and I often thought of them when my husband and I were just at our wits end with the stress and exhaustion. I wondered how on earth they did it on their own. I still don't know how, but they obviously did and their children are wonderful and better behaved than many of my married friends' kids.
If you could live near any friends or family, or even move in with one for the first couple of months, I think it would help you so much. With a newborn, everything you took for granted before is gone, just like that. You can't eat when you're hungry, pee when you need to, answer the phone, the door, really, you can't do anything you want to do. It's like you have to start all over and develop a trick for getting the simplest things done, all the while learning to do something completely foreign. I remember thinking on my kid's third day home, "Who on earth thought it would be a good idea to give me a baby? Oh yeah, I did
" If you get sick, who takes you to the ER? Who watches your kid? I get kidney stones alot, and had one after my kid was born. Here I am trying to nurse while having crazy renal colic, waiting for my husband to come home from work to take me to the hospital, knowing there is nobody else I can call and nobody to watch our kid. It sucked! In fact, we decided to move back near family partially because we had absolutely nobody and we were going out of our minds. We were completely blindsided by how difficult it was to take care of our baby.
This doesn't mean it'll be that way for you, but I know that I didn't hear any stories like that when I was pregnant. It was all "This is the best thing you'll do" (which is true), "You'll never regret it" (also true), and other glowing memos of the happy side. Nobody tells you that you might end up sitting on the toilet with your newborn in a sling because your cat has been stalking him when you leave him alone. Nobody says that "call is q1 with a newborn" (I loved that, by the way).
I think that if you want to do it, you can and will. But be realistic and don't get caught up in your own bravado and overestimate your capabilities. Like I said, a newborn can drive a normal couple to the brink, and that's a ratio of 2 so-called adults to 1 infant.
Best of luck to you though!