Accepted and Still Feeling Inadequate/Worthless??

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Thanks for all the comments, everyone. Both good and bad. I don't really know what I was hoping to get out of this post other than just seeing if anyone else felt similarly. Validation, if you will. But I suppose that's essentially the root of the problem to begin with...

Krupke, I think you said it pretty well. It sounds like you and are feeling pretty similar.

I am ecstatic to be accepted and I feel incredibly lucky and fortunate to be in that position. I'm going to get to do what I've always wanted to, and that is a pretty great gift in life. Which is why my feelings of inadequacy seem so stupid, but I just can't seem to shake them. Comparing myself to people who have done incredible things is certainly a way to unhappiness, but it's tough to avoid.

At the end of the day, it does stem from insecurities about my own success, not ungratefulness. I just see others taking advantage of so many incredible things in whatever their field might be, and I just wish I had done the same, because I know I could have. It's more being upset with myself than anything else, I suppose, but it's grounded in comparing myself to others.

I've always been told to simply quit whining, get over it, stop comparing yourself, be happy, etc. But do you all have any ways that have worked for you to do that?
Just work on creating your own definition of success and set goals for yourself. One big measure of success in medicine is basic science research output. I hate basic science research. So while people may see a Harvard residency as success, I have no need for Harvard since I'm not gunning to be the best academic. Be honest about what you actually need to be happy and then work towards reaching that. A fulbright would be great, but it's not what you need to be fulfilled.

Your environment also makes a huge difference. Meeting students from outside of top schools allowed me to see that not everyone has the same crazy expectations/pressures about being successful. Much of the feeling of inadequacy was coming from the environment I was in and not so much because I was actually disappointed with where I was at, which goes back to just being honest with yourself.

I also like looking at the figure 1 app and seeing the stuff we'll get to learn about. We're about to enter arguably the most interesting field and it's such a privilege to get to do what we will be doing
 
Kind of feeling the same way, I know what you mean. Ignore idiots like bigdawg who are salty af that your life isn't "scrape by, barely get accepted, be grateful", and don't realize that there are people out there who do amazing things and have high standards for themselves and their peers. All I can suggest is that you keep your chin up and give it your best in med school. Try to find value in things other than one's academic accomplishments or career.
 
It's called "imposter syndrome" Many very successful people feel exactly the same way you do.

The only person you should be comparing yourself to is yourself. There will always be better and less people than you.

Just do well in what you do and more importantly, enjoy doing it. That's what really counts.

Was gonna add "impostor syndrome" if someone else didn't already. I have occasionally experienced bouts of it myself throughout medical school, despite doing quite well. I think it's quite common.
 
Goro mentioned impostor syndrome already, but I'm not sure if that fits, since OP doesn't feel that they didn't earn their med spot. They just wish they were doing even better because of their peer group.

"Comparison is the thief of joy" as Roosevelt put it
 
So I am a current college senior and have been fortunately accepted at two medical schools and have several interviews at other great programs.

It's a good position to be in, but I still somehow feel incredibly inadequate and average.

Right now, I attend a fairly prestigious undergraduate institution, which means some of my peers are incredible and are doing incredible things. I know many who have done amazing research all through college, have traveled the world, studied abroad, are in happy relationships, received numerous fellowships (Rhodes, Marshall, Fulbright, etc), doing post-grad research, MD-PHD programs, the list goes on and on..

Some are attending medical school, others in other fields. Regardless, these peers will be outstanding physicians, researchers, and world leaders.

For myself, I have had a good college experience. I've traveled and done a bit of research. But it simply seems to pale in comparison to so many people I know, and I can't shake feelings of inadequacy. Here I am, accepted to medical school, and I am feeling worthless.

Much of it stems from the complex that so many pre-meds have, namely that they must be perfect and the best in everything. I have been told time and time again to shake it off and just worry about myself. You can't compare your sadness to another's highlight reel after all...

Does anyone else feel the same way? I feel like I've wasted my undergraduate years in comparison to what my peers have done. Any advice for shaking this feeling and pursuing my future/medical career happily?

Finally, I feel bad for feeling this way because I know that I am incredibly lucky and fortunate. Compared to so much in the world, I have very little to feel bad about. But I still can't shake the feeling and just wanted to know if anyone else felt similarly.

You know, one of my greatest mentors once told me that the most successful people in life have imposter syndrome -- that they are "fakers," "failures," or got where they are by accident. These feelings are normal among the highly accomplished (which you are, if you were accepted to med school!). That unshakeable feeling inadequacy is oftentimes what drives people to accomplish incredible things.

Try not to let these feelings define you, and if anything, allow them to push you to excel. And regardless of what others on here are saying, don't feel ashamed about feeling this way. Maybe speak to someone if it gets overwhelming. There will ALWAYS be someone out there who is more accomplished than you, especially in medical school, but that does not mean you don't deserve to be where you are. The trick is learning to be proud of your peers for what they have achieved, rather than envious. You'll be much happier if you do!
 
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Try not to let these feelings define you, and if anything, allow them to push you to excel. And regardless of what others on here are saying, don't feel ashamed about feeling this way. Maybe speak to someone if it gets overwhelming. There will ALWAYS be someone out there who is more accomplished than you, especially in medical school, but that does not mean you don't deserve to be where you are. The trick is learning to be proud of your peers for what they have achieved, rather than envious. You'll be much happier if you do!

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On the flip side, I dont suppose you have a parent that reminds you every day that you're useless? Do you? Always remember, there is someone out there doing worse. Stay grateful with your acceptance and interviews. I have a friend who got into medical school with a 39 MCAT. I saw him not too long ago and congratulated him on his accomplishments. I felt good doing it because I was giving POSITIVE energy. I'm pretty he felt good too, well I hoped he did. He better! All in all, I did compare myself to my friend; only in a sense that it motivated me to become like him--to get into medical school.

When you compare, you have two choices: a red and blue pill.

Blue pill: Choose inspiration and allow yourself to strive for better. You channel your newly awakened energy to fuel your perseverance, motivation, and ambition.
Red pill: Choose jealousy and allow yourself to rot from within. The energy is lost and emitted to the environment. Someone will take advantage of this free resource.

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The choice is yours; you ultimately choose your fate. Btw, the pills have 36 grams of sugar.
 
You got lucky, and bless you, you know it. Your more accomplished friends also got lucky. The guy selling fried cockroaches from a wheelbarrow in Bangkok is luckier than the guy with no wheelbarrow.

Or maybe not. Maybe the jealousy and envy of the barrow-less are dragging him down. Maybe he's never sure if his friends even like him, maybe reimbursements I mean profits are declining in cockroaches, and maybe his long working hours are destroying his family.

Accomplishments come at a cost of time and money and energy that could go elsewhere. Many of the most accomplished people I have met in NYC are also the emptiest and most foul. And I've also met bank presidents and celebrities with hearts of solid gold. (Not to mention plenty of poor people in both camps.) Let this sadness make your heart gentle, soft, and strong. Let it give you perspective and humility. This so-called "imposter syndrome" isn't an obstacle to surmount. It's an opportunity to become a beautiful and real human being.

Congratulations, you may become one of the good ones.
 
So I am a current college senior and have been fortunately accepted at two medical schools and have several interviews at other great programs.

It's a good position to be in, but I still somehow feel incredibly inadequate and average.

Right now, I attend a fairly prestigious undergraduate institution, which means some of my peers are incredible and are doing incredible things. I know many who have done amazing research all through college, have traveled the world, studied abroad, are in happy relationships, received numerous fellowships (Rhodes, Marshall, Fulbright, etc), doing post-grad research, MD-PHD programs, the list goes on and on..

Some are attending medical school, others in other fields. Regardless, these peers will be outstanding physicians, researchers, and world leaders.

For myself, I have had a good college experience. I've traveled and done a bit of research. But it simply seems to pale in comparison to so many people I know, and I can't shake feelings of inadequacy. Here I am, accepted to medical school, and I am feeling worthless.

Much of it stems from the complex that so many pre-meds have, namely that they must be perfect and the best in everything. I have been told time and time again to shake it off and just worry about myself. You can't compare your sadness to another's highlight reel after all...

Does anyone else feel the same way? I feel like I've wasted my undergraduate years in comparison to what my peers have done. Any advice for shaking this feeling and pursuing my future/medical career happily?

Finally, I feel bad for feeling this way because I know that I am incredibly lucky and fortunate. Compared to so much in the world, I have very little to feel bad about. But I still can't shake the feeling and just wanted to know if anyone else felt similarly.
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So I am a current college senior and have been fortunately accepted at two medical schools and have several interviews at other great programs.

It's a good position to be in, but I still somehow feel incredibly inadequate and average.

Right now, I attend a fairly prestigious undergraduate institution, which means some of my peers are incredible and are doing incredible things. I know many who have done amazing research all through college, have traveled the world, studied abroad, are in happy relationships, received numerous fellowships (Rhodes, Marshall, Fulbright, etc), doing post-grad research, MD-PHD programs, the list goes on and on..

Some are attending medical school, others in other fields. Regardless, these peers will be outstanding physicians, researchers, and world leaders.

For myself, I have had a good college experience. I've traveled and done a bit of research. But it simply seems to pale in comparison to so many people I know, and I can't shake feelings of inadequacy. Here I am, accepted to medical school, and I am feeling worthless.

Much of it stems from the complex that so many pre-meds have, namely that they must be perfect and the best in everything. I have been told time and time again to shake it off and just worry about myself. You can't compare your sadness to another's highlight reel after all...

Does anyone else feel the same way? I feel like I've wasted my undergraduate years in comparison to what my peers have done. Any advice for shaking this feeling and pursuing my future/medical career happily?

Finally, I feel bad for feeling this way because I know that I am incredibly lucky and fortunate. Compared to so much in the world, I have very little to feel bad about. But I still can't shake the feeling and just wanted to know if anyone else felt similarly.

http://forums.studentdoctor.net/threads/why-pre-meds-are-unhappy.1167537/ <--- This.
 
Kind of feeling the same way, I know what you mean. Ignore idiots like bigdawg who are salty af that your life isn't "scrape by, barely get accepted, be grateful", and don't realize that there are people out there who do amazing things and have high standards for themselves and their peers. All I can suggest is that you keep your chin up and give it your best in med school. Try to find value in things other than one's academic accomplishments or career.
I agree with the whole having higher ambitions thing but you can understand why those who are still waiting to hear back find it hard to sympathize
 
I agree with the whole having higher ambitions thing but you can understand why those who are still waiting to hear back find it hard to sympathize
This mentality (not you specifically Donut, I know you are being a middleman here!) is what bothers me about SDN sometimes. This post isn't about those other people waiting to hear back -- it's about OP, and OP's situation. If someone came up to you in real life and said "I'm feeling bad about myself and I don't know why," you wouldn't respond "Suck it up, you accomplished X and Y and I haven't yet, so I don't feel bad for you and am going to mock you." Or if you would, maybe you don't deserve to be a doctor because narcissism and patient care don't mix.
 
This mentality (not you specifically Donut, I know you are being a middleman here!) is what bothers me about SDN sometimes. This post isn't about those other people waiting to hear back -- it's about OP, and OP's situation. If someone came up to you in real life and said "I'm feeling bad about myself and I don't know why," you wouldn't respond "Suck it up, you accomplished X and Y and I haven't yet, so I don't feel bad for you and am going to mock you." Or if you would, maybe you don't deserve to be a doctor because narcissism and patient care don't mix.
lol I completely agree with this
edit: didn't realize you've been accepted! congratzz
 
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Optimistic and true???

You all need to kill your type A personality and embrace your type B personality - lol. You're gonna be a doctor... yay!

I've already accepted I'm not going to be that person... the one who is the top of the class, married, with kids, has a side job, has a house, or whatever. I'm probably not going to get any decent research publish, but it's ok... something will be published - good enough.

What do you call the person who graduate at the bottom of the med school class? - A doctor ... hahahaha
What is wrong with being average? Average means you are better off than 49.99999% of the population. That sounds pretty damn good to me.
 
A lot of this comes when people have no perspective or the ability to actually do self introspection. Too much of ME ME ME ME in this world right now and not enough being happy with who youa are hence why facebook and instagram are so popular.
 
Most schools offer a few sessions of free counseling or therapy. You might want to give it a try before the long grind of medical school.
 
You got lucky, and bless you, you know it. Your more accomplished friends also got lucky. The guy selling fried cockroaches from a wheelbarrow in Bangkok is luckier than the guy with no wheelbarrow.

Or maybe not. Maybe the jealousy and envy of the barrow-less are dragging him down. Maybe he's never sure if his friends even like him, maybe reimbursements I mean profits are declining in cockroaches, and maybe his long working hours are destroying his family.

Accomplishments come at a cost of time and money and energy that could go elsewhere. Many of the most accomplished people I have met in NYC are also the emptiest and most foul. And I've also met bank presidents and celebrities with hearts of solid gold. (Not to mention plenty of poor people in both camps.) Let this sadness make your heart gentle, soft, and strong. Let it give you perspective and humility. This so-called "imposter syndrome" isn't an obstacle to surmount. It's an opportunity to become a beautiful and real human being.

Congratulations, you may become one of the good ones.

unbelievably well said. thank you...you articulated i think the best way to go about feeling better about these feelings.
 
You should get a hobby.

edit: that makes you feel fulfilled, happy, and better about yourself - one that speaks to your inner self, and helps to cure the mind, body, and "spirit."
 
There's a lot of good advice and insight in this thread, but also many "boo hoo, your life is so hard" comments as well, which is exactly what makes this so hard to talk about. My situation is similar to yours in many ways -- high achiever at a prestigious school, but can't shake the feeling that I don't deserve any of this. I know I'm incredibly, incredibly fortunate and privileged to be where I am. And that's why I don't talk about it outwardly, because I know that I'll be met with eye rolls and judgment for being ungrateful and oblivious.

I just want to say that you're not alone, and that no matter how fortunate you may be, you have the right to feel unhappy. Don't let anyone tell you that you don't deserve to feel what you feel. I'd also recommend looking into the concept of "effortless perfection" as well as the What I Be project, which have helped me realize that so many of my peers struggle with the same insecurities below the surface, no matter how accomplished they may appear to be. I'm glad that many college campuses, including my own, have been encouraging discourse on these topics as of late.

You are worthy; you are enough. Congrats on your acceptances.
 
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Forgive me for not sympathizing with an accepted student--how tragic their life is 🙁 . If you're feeling inadequate now, you should prepare to get rekt in med school when you're ONLY surrounded by top tier achievers. Time to get over it. The whole field is driven by people who are better than you. Deal with it.


LOL, or people that think they are better and have the power to "make it be/seem so." 😉
 
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On the flip side, I dont suppose you have a parent that reminds you every day that you're useless? Do you? Always remember, there is someone out there doing worse. Stay grateful with your acceptance and interviews. I have a friend who got into medical school with a 39 MCAT. I saw him not too long ago and congratulated him on his accomplishments. I felt good doing it because I was giving POSITIVE energy. I'm pretty he felt good too, well I hoped he did. He better! All in all, I did compare myself to my friend; only in a sense that it motivated me to become like him--to get into medical school.

When you compare, you have two choices: a red and blue pill.

Blue pill: Choose inspiration and allow yourself to strive for better. You channel your newly awakened energy to fuel your perseverance, motivation, and ambition.
Red pill: Choose jealousy and allow yourself to rot from within. The energy is lost and emitted to the environment. Someone will take advantage of this free resource.

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The choice is yours; you ultimately choose your fate. Btw, the pills have 36 grams of sugar.


LOL Who is in charge of the color bias? Red is the color of life! 🙂 (PS: blood doesn't gross me out if it is bright red. If it's very dark and oozy, well, nightmares.) 😱

That's a fine analogy though. It's just that I'm more of the red, sports car person compared with the same ole blue deal. To each his/her own. 🙂

I'd make the pills like this: serene green (formally blue) vs. flat, grayish-blue (formally red).

So true though. Why the need to compare and contrast ourselves by others or even by what is perpetuated in a culture?

Gratitude is a good thing. I've seen people be on top of everything, even rubbing it in other people's faces, and then, "BOOM!" Something happens, and they get broken--and when this leads to the point where they are truly more gracious and compassionate, it's a bitter-sweet blessing. When they come back still clawing and playing the same ole games, it's just pitiful. But none of us knows what's coming down the road tomorrow, so we might as well be thankful today.

Congratulations on your acceptance. So do whatever you can to enjoy your adventure and grow. Everyone else has their own lives to live. 🙂
 
OP, I guarantee that ALL of your peers and future med school colleagues will share your sentiments in one way or another. It's only natural; put one hundred or so bright, accomplished, ambitious kids into the same room and essentially have them compete with each other (P/F school or not, you are competing with each other whether you like it or not), there will be insecurities abound. Others are just better at hiding it.

Just don't worry about it. What you're feeling is natural.
 
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When you compare, you have two choices: a red and blue pill.

Blue pill: Choose inspiration and allow yourself to strive for better. You channel your newly awakened energy to fuel your perseverance, motivation, and ambition.
Red pill: Choose jealousy and allow yourself to rot from within. The energy is lost and emitted to the environment. Someone will take advantage of this free resource.

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The choice is yours; you ultimately choose your fate. Btw, the pills have 36 grams of sugar.

What if you are a type 1 diabetic?

Haha
 
what one does and how one feels are not related to eachother.
 
Resume's give some people temporary happiness. during a two year break from college I asked people what gave them lasting happiness, never once did I get something about their professional accomplishments. Common among them were; making my wife/children/girlfriend/boyfriend happy, going to bed at night knowing I was the person I planned to be that morning, standing up for what's right and serving people. A coworker at one of my premed jobs gave me really great advice, "stop doing things JUST to boost your resume, if you really want to be a doctor there will be plenty of things that you will want to will want to do that will impress those you need to impress." Now I'm not going to a top ten medical program, but following that advice has completely changed my experience as a pre-med student. I quickly stopped doing a lot of 'filler' activities but what I did I was passionate about and am much happier doing what I do.
 
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A couple things here....

The truth is: Until we become attending physicians, we all are worthless pieces of **** in patient care or worse, at least pieces of **** don't accidentally kill sick people. So it's perfectly fine to feel inadequate in that sense, but not in comparisons to other people. I don't give a damn what other people think or have done in their lives unless they plan to murder me. What you expressed was jealousy buddy, imho.

Other than God himself, nothing and no one is perfect. Perfection, like infinity and pi, is God's realm, not humans'. And the traditional pre-meds may have near perfect scripted applications they been carefully building since high school days but they are pretty much farthest from being perfect human beings. Nontrads have REAL applications, and most real applications have a red flag here and there, judging from eyes of perfection.





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A major depressive episode
j/k, cheers!
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So I am a current college senior and have been fortunately accepted at two medical schools and have several interviews at other great programs.

It's a good position to be in, but I still somehow feel incredibly inadequate and average.

Right now, I attend a fairly prestigious undergraduate institution, which means some of my peers are incredible and are doing incredible things. I know many who have done amazing research all through college, have traveled the world, studied abroad, are in happy relationships, received numerous fellowships (Rhodes, Marshall, Fulbright, etc), doing post-grad research, MD-PHD programs, the list goes on and on..

Some are attending medical school, others in other fields. Regardless, these peers will be outstanding physicians, researchers, and world leaders.

For myself, I have had a good college experience. I've traveled and done a bit of research. But it simply seems to pale in comparison to so many people I know, and I can't shake feelings of inadequacy. Here I am, accepted to medical school, and I am feeling worthless.

Much of it stems from the complex that so many pre-meds have, namely that they must be perfect and the best in everything. I have been told time and time again to shake it off and just worry about myself. You can't compare your sadness to another's highlight reel after all...

Does anyone else feel the same way? I feel like I've wasted my undergraduate years in comparison to what my peers have done. Any advice for shaking this feeling and pursuing my future/medical career happily?

Finally, I feel bad for feeling this way because I know that I am incredibly lucky and fortunate. Compared to so much in the world, I have very little to feel bad about. But I still can't shake the feeling and just wanted to know if anyone else felt similarly.
 
I know many who have done amazing research all through college
A huge part about doing "amazing research" is getting lucky and finding a good mentor. I know excellent students who got unlucky and ended up with bad projects that went nowhere.

have traveled the world
This isn't exactly a personal, meritorious achievement so much as they're lucky to have the free time to travel (rather than work to support themselves, and have rich parents.

studied abroad
Again, see above. Also you traveled didn't you? I don't see what the issue is here.

in happy relationships
Lol. All that you see is what they choose to show the world. Social media is an illusion. I know couples who looked absolutely perfect on social media and were constantly fighting, bickering, and grew to hate each other. Get off social media.

I could keep going but I'll sound like a broken record. Keep in mind that everyone is on equal footing once you start medical school. So if you're really concerned about posturing, step your game up and become class president and get 10 first author publications in NEJM before you match.



1. If you put some spin, a summer of test tube washing could be presented as amazing research;
2 & 3. Agree with after_the_flood;
4. Not just social media. Mainstream media as well. Then there's "reality" TV shows, movies, etc. Happy relationships are an illusion and they take hard hard effort from both sides to work.


Last line: My wife had a first author publication on the Science Magazine and I actually felt happy for her.
 
Resume's give some people temporary happiness. during a two year break from college I asked people what gave them lasting happiness, never once did I get something about their professional accomplishments. Common among them were; making my wife/children/girlfriend/boyfriend happy, going to bed at night knowing I was the person I planned to be that morning, standing up for what's right and serving people. A coworker at one of my premed jobs gave me really great advice, "stop doing things JUST to boost your resume, if you really want to be a doctor there will be plenty of things that you will want to will want to do that will impress those you need to impress." Now I'm not going to a top ten medical program, but following that advice has completely changed my experience as a pre-med student. I quickly stopped doing a lot of 'filler' activities but what I did I was passionate about and am much happier doing what I do.



That's how I do it, and thus my med school application does not appear "perfect" or "red flag"-free, cuz it's the real me on there, no filler activities just for appearances' sake on the application. Still got quite a few II's regardless.

Being real >>> pretending
 
So I am a current college senior and have been fortunately accepted at two medical schools and have several interviews at other great programs.

It's a good position to be in, but I still somehow feel incredibly inadequate and average.

Right now, I attend a fairly prestigious undergraduate institution, which means some of my peers are incredible and are doing incredible things. I know many who have done amazing research all through college, have traveled the world, studied abroad, are in happy relationships, received numerous fellowships (Rhodes, Marshall, Fulbright, etc), doing post-grad research, MD-PHD programs, the list goes on and on..

Some are attending medical school, others in other fields. Regardless, these peers will be outstanding physicians, researchers, and world leaders.

For myself, I have had a good college experience. I've traveled and done a bit of research. But it simply seems to pale in comparison to so many people I know, and I can't shake feelings of inadequacy. Here I am, accepted to medical school, and I am feeling worthless.

Much of it stems from the complex that so many pre-meds have, namely that they must be perfect and the best in everything. I have been told time and time again to shake it off and just worry about myself. You can't compare your sadness to another's highlight reel after all...

Does anyone else feel the same way? I feel like I've wasted my undergraduate years in comparison to what my peers have done. Any advice for shaking this feeling and pursuing my future/medical career happily?

Finally, I feel bad for feeling this way because I know that I am incredibly lucky and fortunate. Compared to so much in the world, I have very little to feel bad about. But I still can't shake the feeling and just wanted to know if anyone else felt similarly.

I know exactly how you feel. I'm also a current college senior who is very happy to have one acceptance, but my other pre-med friends have more interviews / more acceptances at "more prestigious" institutions. It definitely feels weird to be feeling inadequate when you know how lucky you have already been, but you aren't alone in feeling this way.

If you feel like you've wasted your undergraduate years, work toward having no regrets for the rest of your senior year and through medical school and beyond. Is there a club you've always wanted to join but never got around to it? Join it now. I tried out one activity as a spring semester junior and just joined another one this semester because I felt like I was going to regret not trying those activities. I found that the first activity I joined maybe wasn't a good fit for me, but I'm loving the one I joined this semester and am so glad I went for it.

The truth is, there will always be people who are "doing better" than you, and people who are "doing worse." The best thing you can do is to be happy with what you have, and go for the opportunities that come to you and that you're interested in.

Feel free to PM me if you want to chat more about this. Hope that helped!
 
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