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I am a second year med student. There are times in the day where I feel severely depressed. This has been going on for a month. I have never felt depressed before. I come from a broken home, but this has never bothered me before. I have no family support. Again this stuff never bothered me before at least not to the extent that its bothering me now. I got to med school and at least 5 people told me that I was disgruntled or had a problem-they were jesting I guess. Didn't think much of it, but now for some reason it's affecting me. I got dumped by my girl--my only support during medical school. I'm not a sucker, but for some reason this was devastating. Now I'm at the pont where I can't get my stuff together. I failed 2 courses. Prior to these courses I honored and high passed half of my classes. The funny thing is, I seriously don't care about the courses I failed. I just want to get out of this state of mind that I am in--that's how bad it is. I am so scared that I will never go back to my usual self, and future seems very bleak. I have never felt like this. It's bad. It takes me an hour to get out of bed. I am thinking more and more about the negative aspects of my life--and believe me there are a lot. I also try to think of how fortunate I am which helps a little but not much. I saw a psychiatrist but it didn't help. She gave me seroquel which made my symptoms worse, and I seriously don't want meds. I kinda feel like I just need to fight this myself but I don't know how. I tried religion-no help. Most of my friends are busy with their own lives and I don't want to get in their way, although they have been helpful. I've started running which helps a little, but it's temporary. I feel like a wus. I'm at the lowest point of my life right now I'm not going to elaborate on that in an online forum and please don't ask me to. I'm not asking for medical advice. I'm asking what you do to get out of the hole if you've ever been in it.
