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Hi, to everyone. Firstly, this probably isnt even the correct forum to post this in however I cant find another forum with so many people who are experts in this area.
Sorry this is really long, and I havent checked it for typos.
Anyway I am 22 years old I am a male. You see the problem doesnt start with me (or I dont want to believe its my fault) its genetic I have no control over it. It stars with me older brother although I must mention I was somewhat younger then him, I was about 6 8 and one-day he had some mental problems, I can remember somethings about him he was about 18 then. I dont remember going to visit him in hospital most of the time he didnt want me there he didnt like me. Anyway one day he was allowed to come home and my family just wanted to act like everything is normal my mum and dad had been through a lot, I felt like I was somewhat neglected during that time, I was 6 7 I couldnt understand it. Anyway I asked my brother to get me some water and drink, and he got some boiling water and gave that to me, and I had burned my tongue on it. And that is when I started to realize my brother was not right, and my dad explained to me and what not and I started to understand the situation more.
Anyway, he had to have some electric shocks to the head or something (I dont know what that is all about) anyway after that he went alright, and we all just forgot about it everyone was happy he got a job he got married and he was just like a normal older brother he is still doing good he is fine.
But I think I have problems, I just dont want to admit to it. But I know, its best if I do, but really I dont anything is wrong with me most of the time. But I do some weird things, well I talk to myself I actually have a conversation with myself until I realize what am doing. Or I think someones watching me and like I am talking to them, its like am in my own world. I cant work I just hate working am not lazy if a hot girl told me to go to work Id be like straight at work no questions asked. But when I or someone from my family tells me I just cant be asked. I think about all the negative things like Ill have to get out of bed get dressed have a shower and then wait in the freezing cold to get a bus. Sometime the things my family joke about now, and I think them were some serious issues I had, like most people would go to school in a bus I used to get a taxi to school, everyday. I just hated the fact that Ill have to stand at the bus stop and look like a idiot or am going to see people I dont know. At one time I went to school 3 days in a whole year, and I had 150+ detentions. It was all about waking up in the morning, and Id go to school late (when I did) so then my teacher said, that I need to see a physiatrist and at the time I thought that was funny that she thinks am crazy. Anyway my older sister she thought I do need to see a one. So I went to the doctors this was just my normal doctor, and he told me that about the satiation and he said to me look if you dont want to go to a physiatrist, then dont whoever they can make you go, and the best thing to would be not to talk then they cant do anything.
Anyway, I told my family this and they just thought there is no point and I was thinking there is nothing wrong with me. I dont need to see one. By then Id left school, and I had to get a job then I regretted messing around in school and not learning anything, and when I recently really thought about it, I said maybe I am crazy. I hate being around people I dont know, I like it when am alone am pretty content and happy when am alone, when am around a group of friends I dont feel right unless they are in my car. I need to be given time to do something, if friends say we are going to a club or something I get really mad and I say am not going, you should have told me before its just things like that. Or when a friend asks for money I just give them it, not only money but other things too.
Like once I was dating this girl, and a friend of mine liked her, so I broke up with her so my friend could be with her, now thats just weird. I dont even know what I did that, but then again I wasnt too bothered about it. Its things like that, sometimes I think I want something when I dont want it. Like once I saw a girl and I thought she was hot, and I told my friend about it (he is a real good friend of mine) and he said: no, way youll never get her loads of guys have tried she doesnt date anyway that I had to be with her, so I eventually did end up with her I went out with her for about a week and I started neglecting the relationship, I thought to myself *what did I see in her she isnt even that pretty* so that ended after 2 weeks. 6 months later I was desperately wanting to be with her.
Sometimes I think I need to get married, I think maybe that will sort me out, but then I think Ill have to work and its just easier if I date a girl.
So is there anything wrong with me? Or do I just need a good kick up the ass?
Sorry this is really long, and I havent checked it for typos.
Anyway I am 22 years old I am a male. You see the problem doesnt start with me (or I dont want to believe its my fault) its genetic I have no control over it. It stars with me older brother although I must mention I was somewhat younger then him, I was about 6 8 and one-day he had some mental problems, I can remember somethings about him he was about 18 then. I dont remember going to visit him in hospital most of the time he didnt want me there he didnt like me. Anyway one day he was allowed to come home and my family just wanted to act like everything is normal my mum and dad had been through a lot, I felt like I was somewhat neglected during that time, I was 6 7 I couldnt understand it. Anyway I asked my brother to get me some water and drink, and he got some boiling water and gave that to me, and I had burned my tongue on it. And that is when I started to realize my brother was not right, and my dad explained to me and what not and I started to understand the situation more.
Anyway, he had to have some electric shocks to the head or something (I dont know what that is all about) anyway after that he went alright, and we all just forgot about it everyone was happy he got a job he got married and he was just like a normal older brother he is still doing good he is fine.
But I think I have problems, I just dont want to admit to it. But I know, its best if I do, but really I dont anything is wrong with me most of the time. But I do some weird things, well I talk to myself I actually have a conversation with myself until I realize what am doing. Or I think someones watching me and like I am talking to them, its like am in my own world. I cant work I just hate working am not lazy if a hot girl told me to go to work Id be like straight at work no questions asked. But when I or someone from my family tells me I just cant be asked. I think about all the negative things like Ill have to get out of bed get dressed have a shower and then wait in the freezing cold to get a bus. Sometime the things my family joke about now, and I think them were some serious issues I had, like most people would go to school in a bus I used to get a taxi to school, everyday. I just hated the fact that Ill have to stand at the bus stop and look like a idiot or am going to see people I dont know. At one time I went to school 3 days in a whole year, and I had 150+ detentions. It was all about waking up in the morning, and Id go to school late (when I did) so then my teacher said, that I need to see a physiatrist and at the time I thought that was funny that she thinks am crazy. Anyway my older sister she thought I do need to see a one. So I went to the doctors this was just my normal doctor, and he told me that about the satiation and he said to me look if you dont want to go to a physiatrist, then dont whoever they can make you go, and the best thing to would be not to talk then they cant do anything.
Anyway, I told my family this and they just thought there is no point and I was thinking there is nothing wrong with me. I dont need to see one. By then Id left school, and I had to get a job then I regretted messing around in school and not learning anything, and when I recently really thought about it, I said maybe I am crazy. I hate being around people I dont know, I like it when am alone am pretty content and happy when am alone, when am around a group of friends I dont feel right unless they are in my car. I need to be given time to do something, if friends say we are going to a club or something I get really mad and I say am not going, you should have told me before its just things like that. Or when a friend asks for money I just give them it, not only money but other things too.
Like once I was dating this girl, and a friend of mine liked her, so I broke up with her so my friend could be with her, now thats just weird. I dont even know what I did that, but then again I wasnt too bothered about it. Its things like that, sometimes I think I want something when I dont want it. Like once I saw a girl and I thought she was hot, and I told my friend about it (he is a real good friend of mine) and he said: no, way youll never get her loads of guys have tried she doesnt date anyway that I had to be with her, so I eventually did end up with her I went out with her for about a week and I started neglecting the relationship, I thought to myself *what did I see in her she isnt even that pretty* so that ended after 2 weeks. 6 months later I was desperately wanting to be with her.
Sometimes I think I need to get married, I think maybe that will sort me out, but then I think Ill have to work and its just easier if I date a girl.
So is there anything wrong with me? Or do I just need a good kick up the ass?
