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you need to get laid.
that feeling inevitably happens. A lot of times where I feel and start thinking "why the hell am I doing this". I see my friends getting married, starting families, buying houses, etc. And I see myself still living off loans, haven't lived in 1 place for more than year (I've lived in many cities/countries over the past 3-4 years). But then I think of the alternative and how lousy my life could have been if I didn't get myself on track and worked to get into med school.
the problem with the year off thing is that I cannot afford to start repaying my loans, which is inevitably what I would have to start doing....the other problem with the year off is that i cant finance my living here without a loan...and my school wont give you loans unless u are in school..the last problem with the year off thing...i would like to just get this whole thing over with and not prolong this insanity.
actually i had one rotation that i liked....i really enjoyed psych, and if i do practice, thats what i would end up doing i imagine. however it was my first rotation, so it's hard to tell right?
the thing is the whole medical system frustrates me sometimes. i feel like so much has changed now and doctors cannot practice the way they choose....im afraid of litigation...its a daunting thing to realize that every time i work with a patient, i have the potential of getting sued.
and third year is so crazy. i hate every time when i start a new rotation it's always new and you have no idea what's going on...i hate making mistakes, im always afraid im realllly going to screw up.
i hate being so exhausted and worrying about when im going to get some free time so i can STUDY for the shelf. i hate that i have to see my loved ones so much less because of this lifestyle =(
i guess im just venting now. i have a question for u all, if u could go back to the premed days, knowing everything you know now, would you still go into medicine?? ive asked this question to a lot of people and ive gotten a range of responses...