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I think it's semi-hilarious that I'm using this code-name to submit this thread, but nonetheless I do have a dilemma and I'd love some input from active members here, especially residents, attendings, and BKN/any PD's in the group.
Basically, I've narrowed my final rank list down to four great programs. I had told my home program that they were my #1 (met with PD, sat down with him for 5 mins & told him clearly that they were #1). However, it was a big mistake, because at this point they are now my #2 or even #3. I shouldn't have committed so early - there was a bit of pressure on their end - but it was really a big gaffe on my end to commit when I still had two interviews left.
It wouldn't a huge problem if I matched there, and of course I might not even match there. But I really think I found one or two places that I love more, and feel more at home at. I don't want to screw my home program, because I value my word, and still have them #1 on my list. But is it too late to back out, and if so - how do I go about it?
Granted, it wouldn't feel great to write/call this PD and tell him that I've found a better place. But on the other hand, he never gave me any indication of my fit in the program other than saying that I'd gotten favorable reviews. I also don't want to rank them less than first, only to match somewhere else & have them see me as a snake. I'm very confused.
Anyhow, I know a lot of people are posting "help me rank" questions, and posing similar dilemmas. However, if you read this and feel like you might have a little something to contribute, even if it's just a gut feeling, please let me know. I want to be happy where I match, and I want to maintain my integrity while doing so.
Thanks for any help : )
Basically, I've narrowed my final rank list down to four great programs. I had told my home program that they were my #1 (met with PD, sat down with him for 5 mins & told him clearly that they were #1). However, it was a big mistake, because at this point they are now my #2 or even #3. I shouldn't have committed so early - there was a bit of pressure on their end - but it was really a big gaffe on my end to commit when I still had two interviews left.
It wouldn't a huge problem if I matched there, and of course I might not even match there. But I really think I found one or two places that I love more, and feel more at home at. I don't want to screw my home program, because I value my word, and still have them #1 on my list. But is it too late to back out, and if so - how do I go about it?
Granted, it wouldn't feel great to write/call this PD and tell him that I've found a better place. But on the other hand, he never gave me any indication of my fit in the program other than saying that I'd gotten favorable reviews. I also don't want to rank them less than first, only to match somewhere else & have them see me as a snake. I'm very confused.
Anyhow, I know a lot of people are posting "help me rank" questions, and posing similar dilemmas. However, if you read this and feel like you might have a little something to contribute, even if it's just a gut feeling, please let me know. I want to be happy where I match, and I want to maintain my integrity while doing so.
Thanks for any help : )