do I stick with it?

[revolution1980]

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im a categorical intern at a nyc program. to be honest, this year is not at all what i expected. im totally miserable. i feel alone. i feel disconnected from my co-interns.
in the past wherever i have worked, the best thing about the job was the people i worked with. u have laugh sometimes, there has to be some level of fun. i get that this job is supposed to be super intense all the time etc etc. i just thought i'd be happier. and it's not like im doing a bad job, i think i do alright in terms of the work. i juat havent connected with anyone.
so i think maybe it's the residents? the program's atmosphere?
do people ever transfer to different programs? is it possible?
anyone else experiencing this? 🙁

 

[piptaz]

One reason why its tough to connect in the first month or two is that the other people you would connect with are also under heavy fire - you mention that you feel that you are doing alright from a work point of view but it likely that many of your cohort do NOT feel alright from a work point of view and are not emotionally/socially availible out of their own insecurities and work-load. That will get better and people will gradully be able to take a deep breath and start thinking of things besides sleep and work.

Constructively, you are living in NY and residency is not the only social game in town so I would, work allowing, see about getting back involved enjoying the things you used to enjoy being involved in and meeting people through those activities - for evenyone else in NY (and thats millions strong) this is just another August, not the start of residency, so things will being going on like normal for them and will be up for enjoying life.

If you are really at you wits ends please talk to you chiefs or PD sooner rather than later as they can be very supportive since they see all of this year in and out and can be a great resource.

Good luck!