Does this worry anybody else?

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Right now I'm a college student, and I'm pretty certain that I want to be a veterinarian. However, I also tend to be a pretty anxious person who worries a lot. Sometimes I worry that I'll make it through vet school and end up being a crummy doctor. I also realize that all people (even the best veterinarians) make mistakes. I'm not sure how I would handle knowing that my mistake cost somebody's pet its life. Even working at a clinic now, I'm always worried about making some stupid, but potentially fatal, mistake like counting out the wrong size medication or drawing up the wrong vaccine or something. Does this bother anybody else or am I just overly worried? Is this constant anxiety a sign that veterinary medicine isn't for me?
 
I kind of think you need to relax and live a bit. As you already noted, you will make mistakes; some will be worse then others, and some may cost someone or something their lives.

While some professions carry a greater standard of care to help reduce these mistakes, you will never get rid of them all.

Doctors (MD's) and Nurses have much more to (potentially) loose following their mistakes (and I know some crummy MD/Nurses), so, I wouldn't worry about it too much. Your experience in the clinic is probably very good for you.

As far as your constant anxiety, guess it depends how bad it is. If it keeps you on your toes and you can handle it (and dare I say, enjoy it), then don't fight it.

If it gets in the way of your duties/responsibilities, you had better look into it.

Me, I used to, right before I went to bed, think of everything I did or didn't do during the day. More then once I drove myself to the Hospital in the middle of the night to check to make sure I DID give so and so a medicine (99% of the time, all was good, but there have been a few "Oh ****" moments).
 
Everyone is going to make mistakes at some point, even really really bad ones. There are some things you can do to help prevent yourself from doing so like focusing on having good time management and an organized work-place. If you're constantly overwhelmed, you're more likely to miss or forget something. Also, try to avoid working yourself into a constant state of exhaustion/burn-out. That'll help keep you from making careless mistakes, too.

If I were you, I would see about talking to a counselor. I'm not trying to say there's anything wrong with you, since everyone worries about this at some point - just that a counselor might help you find good ways to ease your stress and work beyond or around it. They can also help you set up good time management and self-care skills. If you're in college right now, you probably have a student resource center or counseling center on campus that you could check out.
 
the best doctors i have ever worked with are the ones who have stayed up at night worrying about a case or thinking through a situation and wondering if they could have done something different. they're the ones who are willing to take phone calls and e-mails on their days off, to stay at the hospital extra late, and who will swallow any and all pride and ask questions.

notice, i didn't say "smartest," i said best. very often they end up being smart, because they are constantly trying to learn. but i also know some doctors who are constantly trying to learn, and who are not the greatest in spite of this searching. they're competent, they care a lot, they put extra effort in, but they seem to be missing something.

i stay up at night worrying about my patients, in particular the ones who are *not* hospitalized. i'm anxious half the time. i usually only calculate my drugs once, but that's because i'm very confident in my math - but if my doctor orders a drug and doesn't give me a dose, i always look it up - even if i've done calculations with it 500 times - because i don't want to make that mistake.

some things we double check are common sense (did I take that catheter out before discharging the patient?), and some are because we're just really nervous (did I turn down that fluid rate?). everyone is going to have things they get anxious about, and those things will change over the course of your career.

btw, that's a question that may come up in an interview - "you or a staff member has made an error, and a patient has died. what is your response to the client? to your staff?" I got that at my Tufts interview, and it was the only question where i felt that the interviewers had a "right" answer in mind.

so, yes, be anxious, but don't let it dissuade you. 🙂
 
I agree with everything above.

I'd like to add a few words from the book Better, written by Atul Gawande, who's a general surgeon at the Brigham and Women's Hospital in Boston and an associate professor at both the Harvard Medical School and the Harvard School of Public Health. Although he's not a veterinarian, the topic transcends both fields.

"The paradox at the heart of medical care is that it works so well, and yet never well enough. It routinely gives people years of health that they otherwise wouldn't have had. Death rates from heart disease have plummeted by almost two-thirds since the 1950's. Risk of death from stroke have fallen more than 80%. The cancer survival rate is now 70%. But these advances have required drugs and machines and operations and, most of all, decisions that can as easily damage people as save them. It's precisely because of our enormous success that people are bound to wonder what went wrong when we fail.
As a surgeon, I will perform about 350 operations in the next year, everything from emergency repair of strangulated groin hernias to removal of thyroid cancers. For six, maybe 8 patients (roughly 2%) things will not go well. They will develop life-threatening bleeding. Or I will damage a critical nerve. Or I will make a wrong diagnoses. Whatever Hippocrates may have said, sometimes we do harm. Studies of serious complications find that usually half are unavoidable, and in such cases I might be able to find solace in knowing this. But in the other half I will have done something wrong, and my mistakes are going to change someone's life forever. Society is still searching for an adequate way to understand these instances. Are doctors who make mistakes villains? No, because then we all are. But we are tainted by the harm we cause.
I watch alot of baseball, and I often find myself thinking about the third baseman's job. In a season, a third baseman will have about as many chances to throw a man out as I will to operate on people. The very best (players like Mike Lowell, Bill Mueller, and Alex Rodriguez) do this perfectly almost every time. But 2% of the time even they drop the ball or throw it over the 1st baseman's head. No one playing a full season fails to make stupid errors. When a player does, the fans hoot and jeer. If his error costs the game, the hooting will turn to yelling. Imagine, though, if every time Mike Lowell threw and missed, the error cost or damaged the life of someone you cared about. One error leaves an old man with a tracheotomy; another puts a young woman in a wheelchair; another leaves a child brain-damaged the rest of her days. His team mates would still commiserate, but the rest of us? Some would rush the field howling for Lowell's blood. Others would see all the saves he'd made and forgive him for his failures. Nobody though would see him in quite the same light again. And nobody would be happy to have the game go on as if nothing had happened. We'd want him to show sorrow, to take responsibility. We'd want the people he injured to be helped in a meaningful way."

It goes on to take about how malpractice cases rarely benefit the injured and how lawyers manipulate the system and so forth...
 
Nice passage. When I saw the baseball analogy, my eyes rolled and slightly glazed over, but in the end it made for a really good perspective. Figures they used 3rd baseman, and not SS. Jeter don't make no errors.
 
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