Blackfire, I have experience working in the coroner's/medical examiners office. I spent 2 years working as a coroner intern and I spent 1 year as a morgue rat for another coroners office. I have attended scenes, I made death notifications, I made the toxicology runs, I know they have abnormal hours, I have been exposed to all manners of death, all walks of life. I spent a tremendous amount of time with the forensic pathologists in the grossing room preparing cassetts to be made into slides, I have worked on cases using the hepa filter. Believe me I know there is much, much more to it than the COD. You know what? I love it, this is all I have wanted to do for the past 11 years. I live and breathe it every chance I get. I assisted at the last NAME meeting and would love to attend the current one being held in Nashville but sadly I don't have the funds and I am not a member of NAME. I am a member of a coroners association here in Cali. I have a certificates in basic fingerprint, firearms familiarization, arrest search & seizure (here in Cali the deputy coroners are peace officers) homicide investigation and a couple of other things. I have the Spitz & Fisher book and a collection of other useful books. Forensic Path is not something I decided to do over night bc of the OJ case or the explosion of CSI or those other shows, I wanted to get involved before the OJ case, before all those shows came on the air. I remember when there were only a few shows on Court TV, TLC and the Discovery channel, I was and still am addicted to them. I know that they are not always true to the case but they are closer than CSI or Crossing Jordan. I also happen to know the forensic pathologists who consult for both of those shows so I know the information they get is accurate but it's Hollywood and they need to do what they need to do to get ratings. This choice is a passion, something that I know if I do not do as my career choice, not a job but a career choice I will not be satisfied and when I die I will not have been fulfilled. I have a nice job right now that has nothing to do with the field and it pays me well but everyday I go there I think this is one more day I am not being true to myself and it saddens me.
I apologize if this appears defensive it is not meant to be but forensics IS my passion. I have had so many people question me about how I knew that I wanted to be involved with death investigation at such a young age and it's just a feeling I have and when I did my internship it cemented it for me. I knew there was no where else for me.
I know all the work that goes into it and how it's hard on relationships and how it can mentally take its toll on you as well as physically but I wouldn't want to do anything else with my life. There is a reason for everything, we all take the paths we are suppose to take in life and even though it kills me to not be involved in death investigation in some manner I know there is a reason. The only thing I can do is keep in touch with the friends I have that are forensic pathologist already, the ones who are deputy coroners/medical examiner investigators or whatever they are called depending on which county or state they work. I can keep attending the seminars and buying the books and keeping in touch with the field until I can finally work there. As soon as I have the funds I will be going to St. Louis to take the course for the ABMDI certification.
Thank you though for trying to tell me there is so much more to it than cause and manner. I know and I love every second of it. I remember when I attended the last NAME meeting being in absolute awe of meeting Dr. Noguchi, it was like a dream of mine.
I have worked with the pathologists and my favorite time was when we were in the grossing room because I could pick their brains about any and everything. All the ones I have come into contact with are all willing to write letters of rec for me, so I must be doing something right. 🙂
Anyways, that's enough rambling from me about forensics and my love affair with it. I do truly appreciate you trying to tell me to do an internship and to see how much work it is but I have already and nothing has detered me and nothing will. This is my passion, my career choice, my future lies here in being able to speak for the dead. I honestly can't say enough about it but this what I want to do more than anything in the world. I am hooked from my first show that I watched, book that I read, my first autopsy, my first death notification. Even though it is an extremely difficult job, especially when it comes to the child deaths and the undetermind cases someone has to be there to answer as many questions as possible. I want so much to be a part of that. I want to do everything.
Again, I apologize if it appears as though I am being defensive. I truly do not mean it to come across that way but I am aware of the difficulties that have come and will continue to come my way. Thank you again for trying to point me in the right direction, I appreciate it.