I made major errors in my ROL and ended up somewhere I don't want to be. I ranked an undesirable program above better programs (that were shiny and made me feel happy within their walls during the interview, wtf is wrong with me!). I did this last minute, trying to make my family happy and also thinking that I was ranking a program with lower expectations than the others I interviewed at. I also had a place to live rent free at my current match (but this opportunity is no longer viable.) I knew I was entering a binding commitment, but I had no idea how bad it would sting and how disappointing my match would be. I finally stopped crying yesterday. I've contemplated breaking the match, and I feel guilty about screwing over my matched program.
If I had my number 1 pick, maybe I would not be having an emotional crisis but my bruised narcisistic ego has made me question choosing pediatrics and staying in medicine in general (I almost quit medical school numerous times, even to the point of meeting with the Dean to discuss my exit). I have no fall back plan, have only worked minimum wage jobs, and my bachelor's is worthless.
I read forums on SDN about others who are hating their match [although it seems no one was as dumb as me with their rank list thinking I could be okay ranking somewhere I don't really want to be over better (but more rigorous) programs]. Everyone is saying stick it out for one year, get your medical liscense or try to get a pgy2 position somewhere else.
My question (after likely excessive venting and explaining) is
Has anyone switched after PGY1 into another program? Do residency swaps work or are those websites a scam? Should I show up in July hoping to transfer out in a year? If I show up in July & work one year, will I have any job opportunities?
P.S
I realize that I am a horribly undeserving person, that there are people who didn't match into peds and some who didn't match at all. And that I should stop my whining. It's just that I've spent the last 4 years hating my life, and I don't know if I should sign up for another 3.
If I had my number 1 pick, maybe I would not be having an emotional crisis but my bruised narcisistic ego has made me question choosing pediatrics and staying in medicine in general (I almost quit medical school numerous times, even to the point of meeting with the Dean to discuss my exit). I have no fall back plan, have only worked minimum wage jobs, and my bachelor's is worthless.
I read forums on SDN about others who are hating their match [although it seems no one was as dumb as me with their rank list thinking I could be okay ranking somewhere I don't really want to be over better (but more rigorous) programs]. Everyone is saying stick it out for one year, get your medical liscense or try to get a pgy2 position somewhere else.
My question (after likely excessive venting and explaining) is
Has anyone switched after PGY1 into another program? Do residency swaps work or are those websites a scam? Should I show up in July hoping to transfer out in a year? If I show up in July & work one year, will I have any job opportunities?
P.S
I realize that I am a horribly undeserving person, that there are people who didn't match into peds and some who didn't match at all. And that I should stop my whining. It's just that I've spent the last 4 years hating my life, and I don't know if I should sign up for another 3.