I'm MS1 at a US MD. I've been on the border of bottom quartile/3rd quartile all year long and have no motivation to study more than 2-3 hours per day anymore. I was a great student in college but the amount of work here has messed me up. After doing poorly on the first few tests in which I put in a good amount of effort (no fails though) I lost motivation. When I do study, I'm watching TV on the side so it's very ineffective. I think I'm depressed and have been feeling borderline suicidal, I have no social life, I've put on weight from drinking and eating comfort food and lack of exercise (I have a fast metabolism so I'm talking like 4 beers/day and a ton of fries and pizza), my hair is falling out, and my extremely successful parents are sick of my complaining. Besides paying my bills they don't care about me. They are pressuring me to complete med school and become a doctor otherwise it will make them look bad, they will write me out of their will, and I'll be left with nothing. I have seen a psychiatrist who recommended medication but wasn't much help otherwise. What do I do?