owlpumpkin
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Hey everyone, I'm not sure if medicine is right for me. I've had some stuff go on that has made me even more cemented in my decision.
One reason is that I was recently terminated from a long time volunteer position, which made me really discouraged. I had been volunteering as a part of nursing units in the hospital for years, which I enjoyed. This semester I thought I would try a front office role. I would sit at the front desk and wait for voicemails to come in and check them and one would probably come in every hour...it was just so boring. So I'd get up and wander around for atleast an hour because I just couldn't take sitting there 3 hours at a time, not talking to anyone and staring at a dial up phone for who knows how long. They terminated me from the program because the manager thought I was ditching (I sat in front of his office so he'd clearly notice when I wasn't there, and technically I was ditching because I was not sitting in my spot like I was supposed to so I didn't try to fight the decision. I know it was really stupid, and I don't know if this is bad, but I felt like I learned a lot more walking around and seeing what goes on...). So the volunteer department told me since I technically left in "bad standing" I won't be able to come back.
Second reason is that I've just been feeling really depressed and paranoid since the beginning of this year and I don't know why. Relationship wise, I have good relationships with friends and family, so I really don't think that's the problem. Academics wise, I've never disliked any science classes and I have a good gpa and test scores and good relations with my professors, so I don't think that's the problem either. My degree will be in bio, so I feel like I have to go professional school if I want to progress. For me, that was going to be medical school or maybe even PA school. I did not apply because for some weird reason, I felt like I was a dead end. Why? I don't know. Plus, I don't even know if I can list all the time I volunteered at the hospital (500+ hours). I've definitely volunteered and worked in other ventures, but the fact that I was terminated from a program I was in for so long in a flash makes me feel really discouraged. I'm planning on taking a gap year after I graduate to figure things out but...I don't know what i would even do. In the beginning of undergrad, I was excited about wanting to go onto medicine, and I even thought about getting an MA certification some time during undergrad. But now, the thought of working as an MA, or scribing, or anything related just fills me with dread. I have never felt like this before, and I don't know where to go from here.
Also, I'm a 21 year old woman who is graduating from undergrad next spring if that helps with anything. Any advice or suggestions are greatly appreciated. Thanks for taking the time read this. (Also sorry for any grammar mistakes or if i posted this in the wrong section)
One reason is that I was recently terminated from a long time volunteer position, which made me really discouraged. I had been volunteering as a part of nursing units in the hospital for years, which I enjoyed. This semester I thought I would try a front office role. I would sit at the front desk and wait for voicemails to come in and check them and one would probably come in every hour...it was just so boring. So I'd get up and wander around for atleast an hour because I just couldn't take sitting there 3 hours at a time, not talking to anyone and staring at a dial up phone for who knows how long. They terminated me from the program because the manager thought I was ditching (I sat in front of his office so he'd clearly notice when I wasn't there, and technically I was ditching because I was not sitting in my spot like I was supposed to so I didn't try to fight the decision. I know it was really stupid, and I don't know if this is bad, but I felt like I learned a lot more walking around and seeing what goes on...). So the volunteer department told me since I technically left in "bad standing" I won't be able to come back.
Second reason is that I've just been feeling really depressed and paranoid since the beginning of this year and I don't know why. Relationship wise, I have good relationships with friends and family, so I really don't think that's the problem. Academics wise, I've never disliked any science classes and I have a good gpa and test scores and good relations with my professors, so I don't think that's the problem either. My degree will be in bio, so I feel like I have to go professional school if I want to progress. For me, that was going to be medical school or maybe even PA school. I did not apply because for some weird reason, I felt like I was a dead end. Why? I don't know. Plus, I don't even know if I can list all the time I volunteered at the hospital (500+ hours). I've definitely volunteered and worked in other ventures, but the fact that I was terminated from a program I was in for so long in a flash makes me feel really discouraged. I'm planning on taking a gap year after I graduate to figure things out but...I don't know what i would even do. In the beginning of undergrad, I was excited about wanting to go onto medicine, and I even thought about getting an MA certification some time during undergrad. But now, the thought of working as an MA, or scribing, or anything related just fills me with dread. I have never felt like this before, and I don't know where to go from here.
Also, I'm a 21 year old woman who is graduating from undergrad next spring if that helps with anything. Any advice or suggestions are greatly appreciated. Thanks for taking the time read this. (Also sorry for any grammar mistakes or if i posted this in the wrong section)
