1stFemaleAlive, I know that the application process can be a pretty stressful moment in your life, as we've all experienced before. However, we've gotten reports from other concerned members here about your contemplation of self harm. SDN really isn't the place to consult for medical advice or psychological issues and I urge you to seek professional help if you feel you are unable to bear it all.
At this point in time, I'm going to go ahead and close this thread and ask that if you ever need help, feel free to PM me. Also, if you have any serious concerns about your dental career, feel free to post in the Confidential Consult forum where you can get personalized advice catered to your given situation. 🙂