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As I progress into MS3, I'm realizing that much of my performance is out of my hands. Thus far, I've been an excellent student and researcher. I was a top student at a top undergrad, but attended a mid-tier MSTP program for personal reasons. I obtained an F30. I'll have ~10 manuscripts by the time I apply, with hopefully at least one at a top journal (in review at Nature [My Field] right now). I have a number of other accomplishments like patents, obtaining significant funding for a startup, and working as a consultant for a biotech company that is translating some of my research. I also scored >250 on step 1, but that is no longer relevant I suppose.
However, so far third year has been a toss up. I honored my first rotation with flying colors. I received 100% 5/5 evaluations from attendings, with some saying I was one of the best medical students they'd ever had. I scored a 90+ on the shelf. On my second rotation I can't seem to break out of getting 4/5 evals (which is firmly HP, which is effectively the lowest grade my school gives) from attendings who work with me for 2-3 days at most. It seems the entire game is getting the right site placement and knowing the right attendings to send evaluations to. Without significant connections within my class, I can't navigate this as effectively as others. It's mostly a game, and clinical skill is very much secondary to all the other factors at play. Older students, including those from my program who've gotten all Honors and AOA, completely acknowledge this. AOA is really only given out to people who get all honors, which I think I'm already disqualified for given I'll almost definitely HP this rotation. I believe I can do well. Maybe 3-4 Hs out of 8 rotations. However, I don't see any clear path to better performance unless I could go back in time and win the site placement lottery. Further, the rotation with the lowest chance of Honors is IM (~15%).
I can't shake the feeling that my entire future, and this insane 9 year investment I made (which came with incredible sacrifice), is just floating in the wind and totally dependent on arbitrary evaluations from attendings who don't even understand our grading system. Ideally I'd be looking to match a PSTP in a city with significant biotechnology industry (not just for me, but for my partner, who works in biotech). This would be somewhere like Boston (MGH/BWH), San Diego (UCSD), Seattle (UWash), Maryland (JH), SF (UCSF, Stanford), Research Triangle/NC (Duke, UNC), LA (UCLA), and maybe Philadelphia (Penn).
Most of these seem like reaches based on current resident profiles. They seem to heavily favor candidates from top tier schools, and many of them have far more impressive CVs than I do. My dream is to be an NIH-funded investigator at an institution where I can do meaningful research. However, if my chances of matching are slim, I'm not sure if I see a point in continuing to pursue this path. I will not pursue a PSTP and drag my partner away from their own career opportunities if the most likely outcome is a clinical role with some research on the side. My passion is biotechnology, and I'm not interested in being a pure clinician. I would sooner do a pathology residency with the sole intention of immediately exiting to industry or leave medicine altogether for management consulting and try to get on the executive track in biotech.
If anyone has insight, I'd be very grateful.
However, so far third year has been a toss up. I honored my first rotation with flying colors. I received 100% 5/5 evaluations from attendings, with some saying I was one of the best medical students they'd ever had. I scored a 90+ on the shelf. On my second rotation I can't seem to break out of getting 4/5 evals (which is firmly HP, which is effectively the lowest grade my school gives) from attendings who work with me for 2-3 days at most. It seems the entire game is getting the right site placement and knowing the right attendings to send evaluations to. Without significant connections within my class, I can't navigate this as effectively as others. It's mostly a game, and clinical skill is very much secondary to all the other factors at play. Older students, including those from my program who've gotten all Honors and AOA, completely acknowledge this. AOA is really only given out to people who get all honors, which I think I'm already disqualified for given I'll almost definitely HP this rotation. I believe I can do well. Maybe 3-4 Hs out of 8 rotations. However, I don't see any clear path to better performance unless I could go back in time and win the site placement lottery. Further, the rotation with the lowest chance of Honors is IM (~15%).
I can't shake the feeling that my entire future, and this insane 9 year investment I made (which came with incredible sacrifice), is just floating in the wind and totally dependent on arbitrary evaluations from attendings who don't even understand our grading system. Ideally I'd be looking to match a PSTP in a city with significant biotechnology industry (not just for me, but for my partner, who works in biotech). This would be somewhere like Boston (MGH/BWH), San Diego (UCSD), Seattle (UWash), Maryland (JH), SF (UCSF, Stanford), Research Triangle/NC (Duke, UNC), LA (UCLA), and maybe Philadelphia (Penn).
Most of these seem like reaches based on current resident profiles. They seem to heavily favor candidates from top tier schools, and many of them have far more impressive CVs than I do. My dream is to be an NIH-funded investigator at an institution where I can do meaningful research. However, if my chances of matching are slim, I'm not sure if I see a point in continuing to pursue this path. I will not pursue a PSTP and drag my partner away from their own career opportunities if the most likely outcome is a clinical role with some research on the side. My passion is biotechnology, and I'm not interested in being a pure clinician. I would sooner do a pathology residency with the sole intention of immediately exiting to industry or leave medicine altogether for management consulting and try to get on the executive track in biotech.
If anyone has insight, I'd be very grateful.