Oh wow! so many replies in a few hours! Where to start??
The Longggg story... Its very long.
Undergrad Background
I graduated from undergard with a 2.6 GPA (according to my transcript. Thus my definite need for SMP) with a BA in Organizational Leadership. I now have close to 200 credits on my transcripts
I went to undergrad out of state and spent 6 years trying to get a degree (blame depression, almost being homeless, transferring, and not knowing what I was doing). I transferred from a quarter term school to a semester calendar so "all" of my credits didnt transfer. My time for undergrad financial aid was expiring, so I finished my BA. I took intro bio and anatomy during my first few years but felt like I needed to explore other options.
Explore i did.
I went from early childhood education to communications, to psychology, transferred schools and ended up with more comm credits, switched back to comm, did a semester as a visiting student in ATL, loved it, moved to Atlanta, decided not to transfer to ATL school because 1) I knew I didnt have the money, and 2) they said I needed 2 extra years to graduate, tried to finish comm degree online, no online option for degree, so instead of moving back to my KY campus (too expensive to live and had NO support system), I scrambled and found an online degree option I could complete before running out of aid.
At this time, it was too late to start a premed program, so I began looking for formal post-baccs. I applied to 3 and got accepted. Because of money, I had all of my applications deferred to the spring 2013 term. Graduated and took a year off to find a job and become a fully functioning member of society to pay for post bacc... didnt work at all. Literally-- no job that year. I withdrew my postbacc applications and counted my losses. Went into a depression...
MBA for Financial Aid
After this debacle, I enrolled at a State school in ATL with the $3k I had remaining in undergrad aid and took BIO and CHEM 1. Passed those with B+ and B. So excited!!! At this point (Spring 2013), I have a minimum wage job, and no more fin aid. I took Summer 2013 off to work and save, but Sallie Mae came knocking because they have some rule about only being able to defer loans for 60 months at a time... But I digress...
I needed to finish these prereqs!! It's the end of the summer and school is supposed to start soon. What can I do to get back in??? Lightbulb! MASTER'S DEGREE!! I look to see what programs at the State school still had an open application for the Fall. Business. Specifically the MBA program. I graduated with a somewhat business degree, and I own a business... why not? I put in my application and was accepted. My plan was to get the max aid/ loans I was eligible for take 2 MBA classes and then use the refund check for premed classes (since you cant use GRAD aid for UNDERGRAD courses.. or so I've been told). This didn't pan out because the school doesnt release refunds until AFTER registration closes. Bummer. So now, I am working full-time and attending the MBA classes.
I knowingly wasted a semester and want to kick myself for it, but wait. I CAN USE GRAD AID FOR UNDERGRAD PRE-REQS! Since I am now in the system as a grad student, I will be charged as a grad student, but I can use my financial aid for it. So, this Spring I am registered for BIO and CHEM 2... as a graduate student. I am only 2 classes into the MBA, so it's nothing for me to stop, but I dont want to jinx my financial aid loophole.
UGH. Just ugh...
I just feel like I'm wasting all of this time and need to find an "in" to medical school. I've never wanted something so much in my life and just feel like this is the right fit for me. I neglected the "itch" I had early on in undergrad because I didn't know what to do. I had no guidance. I blame it on being a first generation American and college student.
There's the long story.
I've volunteered
I have volunteered in a clinical setting (OB/GYN ambulatory clinic as an exam chaperone and working with a program for low income expectant mothers, and hospital Peds ward talking with older kids about their ailments and playing games with younger kids so they could understand their ailments.) While this experience was a summer long, I volunteered 5 days a week for 6 hours a day. After leaving my home state for school, I attempted to volunteer at my then University's Hospital, but they said I had a criminal offense on my background check (from where?? Ive never been arrested nor have I been involved in anything criminal) and it was never rectified. So I was unable to follow through with it.
I plan on shadowing
I am in contact with an anesthesiologist who came and spoke to the AMSA group at my school about shadowing opportunities... We'll see what comes of it.
This is my life...
IDK what more to offer, but my path of becoming a doctor is more than me trying to avoid a bad job market... It is a genuine interest that has nagged at me for as long as I can remember. I didnt have some life changing story that encouraged me. Just a passion to help, and compassion for underserved urban women since that is a category I am all too familiar with.
The MPH?
I thought of the MPH route because, as I stated, it would be at the medical school ... Morehouse to be exact. This is a smaller school that I have visited and it seems as if everybody knows everybody. I figured that rubbing elbows couldnt hurt if I was working hard and they saw how hard I was working. But the more I think of it and the more people comment here, it doesnt seem like the way to go. Especially since I have no genuine interest the technical MPH. I will wait until I complete the pre-reqs and take the MCAT to apply to SMPs. I am in search of a reputable program, that will give me the knowledge, experience, and skills to have a strong enough application.
Thank you everyone for the replies!