My fragile ego is getting beat up

[VictorAlpha]

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I finally just got an interview invite!

Except, I'm taking it more of as an insult than anything. The school barely breaks into the top fifty and was literally my last choice. I spent some time there (the undergrad and partly the medical school) and let me just say I hate (and I do not like using the word hate) it there so very much. I applied there because my parents pushed me to apply there and they are making me go to the interview. I have had migraines for two days now and nightmares (I can barely sleep). I hate the culture at the school, and I despise the students there (many, many of whom I know). It is the most hostile environment on this Earth.

I can hide this anger during my interview, but I know their real intent in this. They are going to belittle me the entire interview. The interviewer will drill me and make me feel like I'm not worth anything in the world. They are like that there, I know it.

Man, I'm not so much angry at the school as I am with myself. Why did I put myself in this position? Why wasn't I competitive enough for the UVAs, Hopkins, Harvards, Stanfords of the world? How did my life get to where it is right now? I actually looked down on this institution for so many years of my life and now they will kick dirt on my face while I'm barely crawling through the end of the application season. I wish I could turn my life around and become more competitive for the top programs in the country, but I've run out of time and my parents won't let it go on any longer.

Sorry, this isn't a troll post. I'm just losing it big time and I need some advise.

...ok... is there anyone who knows like what percentage of posts that say "this isn't a troll post" actually are not or are troll posts? Because I swear, "this isn't a troll post" has become a really big red flag. Maybe the OP should have led with that lol.

if srs, get some psychotherapy.

 

[SOMBound13]

The part that hurts the most is that I genuinely disliked so much of this school and the peers of mine who chose to attend medical school there. They will be there on interview day (either in classes, the halls, or leading the tours). I really just never wanted to see them again in my life.

Some of the faculty there were incredibly rude to me years ago and made me feel like, well I was nothing. I never wanted to see or hear from them either again.

editing....

After rereading the above, this really is starting to confirm that this is a troll post. The SOM faculty wouldn't be the same that you had as an undergrad. And, this isn't middle school with bullies roaming the halls.

 

[NickNaylor]

...ok... is there anyone who knows like what percentage of posts that say "this isn't a troll post" actually are not or are troll posts? Because I swear, "this isn't a troll post" has become a really big red flag. Maybe the OP should have led with that lol.

if srs, get some psychotherapy.

Very few. That's why it's such a dead give away. Someone who wasn't trying to troll wouldn't say "this isn't a troll post" because they wouldn't even be thinking about it being a troll post.

 

[Ppierce baller]

Very few. That's why it's such a dead give away. Someone who wasn't trying to troll wouldn't say "this isn't a troll post" because they wouldn't even be thinking about it being a troll post.

A) I mentioned that this "isn't a troll post" because if you look at the past two threads I started, it was insinuated quite early on that they were troll posts. Of course, they weren't. I tried to stop that beforehand, but obviously that didn't work.

B) I'm sorry but there is a lot more to the story that I wouldn't (and can't) mention on a public forum. I won't mention the school either on here.

C) I got the answer I was looking for. I have cleared my head and am giving school X a second chance. If it turns out like I think it will, I will be in a very bad state mentally. Again, I hope God gives me another opportunity this year.

D) I think this thread has run its course.

 

[Ppierce baller]

I wish my parents could give me advice once in a while

If I'm reading this correctly, I just don't know what to say. I truly am sorry and that broke my heart. I didn't mean it in the sense that I am ungrateful, I don't know what I meant by it. I guess I am a horrible person for even putting this on my parents. I don't ever want to think about being in a situation where I couldnt go to my parents for advise. I'm sorry, I realize that things in life just don't go the way we planned. If I'm reading this right, I'm really sorry. Man, this post just really hit me hard.

 

[KnuxNole]

I can't even imagine what terrible things this school(and classmates) could actually do to you. Did they throw stuff at you, push you down stairs, etc.

 

[Ppierce baller]

I can't even imagine what terrible things this school(and classmates) could actually do to you. Did they throw stuff at you, push you down stairs, etc.

It's more mental than physical damage.

 

[CrimsonKing]

It's more mental than physical damage.

As my HS football coach would say, it's time for you to nut up or shut up.

/thread, for goodness sake

 

[487806]

It's more mental than physical damage.

how so?

 

[TheWeeIceMan]

It's more mental than physical damage.

I've never set foot in medical school, but I would imagine you will have to put up with quite a bit of "mental damage" through your medical training. I would start trying to learn how to brush it off now.

 

[Pattycake25]

stop fallin for the troll

But he said he wasn't a troll!!! =O

 

[SOMBound13]

I can't even imagine what terrible things this school(and classmates) could actually do to you. Did they throw stuff at you, push you down stairs, etc.

It's more mental than physical damage.

Are you saying that college classmates bullied you in some way? The same ones who are now in this med school? Are they currently M1 or M2 or what?

If so, then maybe some of the current med students can share with this thread how it might be in med school. These are current students, and you'd be a M1. Would there have to be much interaction between M1 students and the others?

Is this Indiana or Florida? Indiana's med school is large, so if it's that school, maybe you won't have to deal with these people at all. Besides, you'd think they'd have grown up by now.

 

[pkwraith]

If I'm reading this correctly, I just don't know what to say. I truly am sorry and that broke my heart. I didn't mean it in the sense that I am ungrateful, I don't know what I meant by it. I guess I am a horrible person for even putting this on my parents. I don't ever want to think about being in a situation where I couldnt go to my parents for advise. I'm sorry, I realize that things in life just don't go the way we planned. If I'm reading this right, I'm really sorry. Man, this post just really hit me hard.

If it will make you feel better, he is filthy rich, got to travel the world, and is very well liked in his social club (which he funds).

 

[UrbanRiver]

I finally just got an interview invite!

Except, I'm taking it more of as an insult than anything. The school barely breaks into the top fifty and was literally my last choice. I spent some time there (the undergrad and partly the medical school) and let me just say I hate (and I do not like using the word hate) it there so very much. I applied there because my parents pushed me to apply there and they are making me go to the interview. I have had migraines for two days now and nightmares (I can barely sleep). I hate the culture at the school, and I despise the students there (many, many of whom I know). It is the most hostile environment on this Earth.

I can hide this anger during my interview, but I know their real intent in this. They are going to belittle me the entire interview. The interviewer will drill me and make me feel like I'm not worth anything in the world. They are like that there, I know it.

Man, I'm not so much angry at the school as I am with myself. Why did I put myself in this position? Why wasn't I competitive enough for the UVAs, Hopkins, Harvards, Stanfords of the world? How did my life get to where it is right now? I actually looked down on this institution for so many years of my life and now they will kick dirt on my face while I'm barely crawling through the end of the application season. I wish I could turn my life around and become more competitive for the top programs in the country, but I've run out of time and my parents won't let it go on any longer.

Sorry, this isn't a troll post. I'm just losing it big time and I need some advise.

Its cool dude.. med school will be different from undergrad. Ppl are more mature in med school and the staff are a lot more supportive. They got less students to work with andtake med students a lot more seriously than undergrads. Dont feel too bad about hating ur undergrad... it just wasnt your fit.. and u seem really introspective and secretly want to get along with ppl at ur school. Forget it.. there will be a community out there somewhere for ya.. some schools r a total bubble i know. I think itll be right to think that this med school youll be interviewing at will be an entirely new school from ur undergrad... even its under the same overall institution. Different administration..different leadership.. different students from across the country.. just scan ur peers the first week of med school orientation and intentionally befriend ppl u like.. theyll be super open since theyre new too. A chance to start clean. i know u visited ur med school as an undergrad but going as an interviewee and esp as a med student is a totally different feel. Seeing that youre a sensitive, introspective guy.. youll have good answers prepared for the interview and will rock it.. just be sincere and in good cheer. Good luck and God bless dudee

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[IslandStyle808]

Its cool dude.. med school will be different from undergrad. Ppl are more mature in med school and the staff are a lot more supportive. They got less students to work with andtake med students a lot more seriously than undergrads. Dont feel too bad about hating ur undergrad... it just wasnt your fit.. and u seem really introspective and secretly want to get along with ppl at ur school. Forget it.. there will be a community out there somewhere for ya.. some schools r a total bubble i know. I think itll be right to think that this med school youll be interviewing at will be an entirely new school from ur undergrad... even its under the same overall institution. Different administration..different leadership.. different students from across the country.. just scan ur peers the first week of med school orientation and intentionally befriend ppl u like.. theyll be super open since theyre new too. A chance to start clean. i know u visited ur med school as an undergrad but going as an interviewee and esp as a med student is a totally different feel. Seeing that youre a sensitive, introspective guy.. youll have good answers prepared for the interview and will rock it.. just be sincere and in good cheer. Good luck and God bless dudee

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+1

This is my favorite piece of advice on this thread (the others are true but I like the way this person has stated it). The main thing is changing that mind set you have about the medical school. There is a high probability OP you won't see the a**holes that during the interview trail. If you do, just smile and brush any negative commentary to the side. Make sure you come in being positive about the interview process because any negativity you are harboring will most likely be felt by the interviewer.

Good luck to you.

 

[Doctor Strange]

 

[CsHead]

 

[hallowmann]

I feel pretty strongly this is a troll post, but the advice for someone in this situation is: get over yourself. You're nothing special, and if you don't want to do this interview, grow some balls and live your life instead of your parents' ideal of a life.

Agreed, sounds like a troll. That being said, your advice is the best. Except maybe the stop listening to his parents thing. Apparently his parents were the ones that actually got him a chance at mayyybe going to medical school in the fall. It seems like he wants to go, but just not at a "barely top 50" school.

Wow... I must say I woke up today feeling that this entire process has made me bat**** crazy... but you are on a whole other LEVEL of cray-cray!!!

This!

...There are more than enough qualified applicants to fill every single spot at every school in the US. If this is the only interview you have, then you best make it a damn good one, otherwise you will go through hell re-applying next year (and then you're really going to have something to cry about).

And this!

 

[as1212559]

I see no ego fragility here.

 

[Belle Melodie]

I finally just got an interview invite!

Except, I'm taking it more of as an insult than anything. The school barely breaks into the top fifty and was literally my last choice. I spent some time there (the undergrad and partly the medical school) and let me just say I hate (and I do not like using the word hate) it there so very much. I applied there because my parents pushed me to apply there and they are making me go to the interview. I have had migraines for two days now and nightmares (I can barely sleep). I hate the culture at the school, and I despise the students there (many, many of whom I know). It is the most hostile environment on this Earth.

I can hide this anger during my interview, but I know their real intent in this. They are going to belittle me the entire interview. The interviewer will drill me and make me feel like I'm not worth anything in the world. They are like that there, I know it.

Man, I'm not so much angry at the school as I am with myself. Why did I put myself in this position? Why wasn't I competitive enough for the UVAs, Hopkins, Harvards, Stanfords of the world? How did my life get to where it is right now? I actually looked down on this institution for so many years of my life and now they will kick dirt on my face while I'm barely crawling through the end of the application season. I wish I could turn my life around and become more competitive for the top programs in the country, but I've run out of time and my parents won't let it go on any longer.

Sorry, this isn't a troll post. I'm just losing it big time and I need some advise.

I think if you're going to medical school you should learn how to spell "advice" and use grammar correctly.

Advice: guidance or recommendations concerning prudent future action, typically given by someone regarded as knowledgeable or authoritative

Advise: to offer suggestions about the best course of action to someone

Good Luck

 

[allsop21]

Simply put, I wouldn't want you as my doctor if that's the kind person you are. There's people on these forums that would kill for your position.

Like many others have said, grow up.

 

[Mornhavon]

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[Dral]

Thanks for the shout out to UVA. Go 'Hoos!

 

[pachewisc]

I have to disagree with all of you telling OP to "nut up or shut up".

He says he doesn't like the people, the staff, or the culture of the school he has an interview at.

Just because you are a raging sycophant weenie who would gobble a turd sandwich to get an acceptance to med school doesn't mean that works for people that have pride or integrity.

I'd tell them to suck a fat one, OP. Work hard and apply next year and go somewhere you'll be happy. On the downside, it might cost you a year. On the upside, you get to keep your soul.

Relevant: http://forums.studentdoctor.net/showthread.php?t=1007

 

[khrisskhoras]

0/10. Try being more subtle. Rule number one of successful trolling: DON'T say "this isn't a troll post." That's like someone trying to get you in on a pyramid scheme saying "this isn't a pyramid scheme."

This is not a reply post...oh wait.

 

[Jas1360]

Hate to break it to all of you recent posters but the OP already went to the interview months ago. So you are all wasting your breath.

 

[candbgirl]

So how did it go? Did they throw stones/dirt at him? Did the people he knows laugh at him and make him feel bad? Was he accepted? Is he going to the school?

 

[Jas1360]

I'll let him answer that if he wants.