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hello everyone, ready for a rant?
like many people who have posted desperately on SDN before, i am considering dropping out of medical school. i'm in my 2nd year of a 6 year combined program, so i'm still very young and have a long way to go, and maybe i could just suck it up and keep going, but the problem is that i've never wanted to be a doctor. i've always been into the humanities (specifically linguistics) and social sciences, and medicine has simply never interested me. so why am in med school? my parents had always pressured me to be a doctor since i was a kid, and i resisted for many years, but eventually i gave in and convinced myself that it wouldn't be so bad. what kind of job would i have if i studied humanities anyways? so i suppressed my prior disdain towards medicine and made myself believe that it was the right choice to the point where i forgot how i originally felt. but those old feelings couldn't be kept hidden for long, because they have officially resurfaced, and very intensely.
i was never passionate about medicine, and i'm a passionate person so it's hard for me to do something that i don't love 100%. i've been trying to figure out why i don't like it, because medicine seems like something that would be a good "fit" for me: i'm compassionate, get the greatest joy out of helping people, enjoy solving mysteries/putting the pieces of the puzzle together (which is kind of what making a diagnosis is, right?), and a good number of my relatives are doctors too so medicine is "in my blood", as my dad says. i have no problem with working hard, i've been getting As in all my classes and it's really not too challenging for me, so difficulty/overwhelmingness isn't the issue. medicine, for some reason, just doesn't spark that fiery passion in me. it's gotten to the point where i'm no longer motivated to study or even get out of bed some mornings. i want to free myself from this misery, but of course it's never that easy... i have to think about the money, the people i'll be disappointing, what i would do if i left and the possibility of regret down the road. what if medicine really is right for me and i'm just not seeing it yet? what if i'm not successful if i pursue something else? i've always been a top student and success was always the natural next step... it's part of my identity. so much fear. i look at my classmates in envy as they study hard and get excited about seeing patients, and would do anything to trade lives with them just so i could have their desire to be a doctor.
i HATE hearing the stories from my parents of people who dropped out of med school or didn't listen to their parents and go to med school and ended up being failures.
after all this thought, i've come to the conclusion that if i do stay, i'm only staying so i can get that coveted MD and do something nonclinical with it. the chances of me actually practicing medicine are very slim. i've considered getting a PhD in linguistics, my true love, after i graduate, but i don't know how plausible that is or what kind of job i would end up getting with a medical degree and a graduate degree in the humanities. i would rather stay than leave after putting in so much effort already, but i'm only here for the degree, not to become a physician, which isn't really a good intention. i know that having an MD opens a lot more doors, so i do want that degree. plus, that guaranteed job security + 6 figure salary could come in handy... if i can't find a job, i could always have my MD to fall back on and go practice medicine or something.
any thoughts?
What is it about linguistics that is so appealing? How were you even exposed to it? What does a linguist actually even do?
People will say if you don't like what you are doing, don't do it. However, the fact of the matter is the world has too many and does not need any more interior designers, faux artists, party planners, and social scientists. These degree/trade programs and humanities majors kids go into these days simply because it seems fun and the government gives them money to do so is simply not practical, and down the road there is a halfway decent chance they end up broke and living with their parents working a deadend job.
Not to say you shouldn't do quit and pursue that, but just something to consider before others tell you to "pursue your dream."
hello everyone, ready for a rant?
like many people who have posted desperately on SDN before, i am considering dropping out of medical school. i'm in my 2nd year of a 6 year combined program, so i'm still very young and have a long way to go, and maybe i could just suck it up and keep going, but the problem is that i've never wanted to be a doctor. i've always been into the humanities (specifically linguistics) and social sciences, and medicine has simply never interested me. so why am in med school? my parents had always pressured me to be a doctor since i was a kid, and i resisted for many years, but eventually i gave in and convinced myself that it wouldn't be so bad. what kind of job would i have if i studied humanities anyways? so i suppressed my prior disdain towards medicine and made myself believe that it was the right choice to the point where i forgot how i originally felt. but those old feelings couldn't be kept hidden for long, because they have officially resurfaced, and very intensely.
i was never passionate about medicine, and i'm a passionate person so it's hard for me to do something that i don't love 100%. i've been trying to figure out why i don't like it, because medicine seems like something that would be a good "fit" for me: i'm compassionate, get the greatest joy out of helping people, enjoy solving mysteries/putting the pieces of the puzzle together (which is kind of what making a diagnosis is, right?), and a good number of my relatives are doctors too so medicine is "in my blood", as my dad says. i have no problem with working hard, i've been getting As in all my classes and it's really not too challenging for me, so difficulty/overwhelmingness isn't the issue. medicine, for some reason, just doesn't spark that fiery passion in me. it's gotten to the point where i'm no longer motivated to study or even get out of bed some mornings. i want to free myself from this misery, but of course it's never that easy... i have to think about the money, the people i'll be disappointing, what i would do if i left and the possibility of regret down the road. what if medicine really is right for me and i'm just not seeing it yet? what if i'm not successful if i pursue something else? i've always been a top student and success was always the natural next step... it's part of my identity. so much fear. i look at my classmates in envy as they study hard and get excited about seeing patients, and would do anything to trade lives with them just so i could have their desire to be a doctor.
i HATE hearing the stories from my parents of people who dropped out of med school or didn't listen to their parents and go to med school and ended up being failures.
after all this thought, i've come to the conclusion that if i do stay, i'm only staying so i can get that coveted MD and do something nonclinical with it. the chances of me actually practicing medicine are very slim. i've considered getting a PhD in linguistics, my true love, after i graduate, but i don't know how plausible that is or what kind of job i would end up getting with a medical degree and a graduate degree in the humanities. i would rather stay than leave after putting in so much effort already, but i'm only here for the degree, not to become a physician, which isn't really a good intention. i know that having an MD opens a lot more doors, so i do want that degree. plus, that guaranteed job security + 6 figure salary could come in handy... if i can't find a job, i could always have my MD to fall back on and go practice medicine or something.
any thoughts?
3) You are doing a 6-year program in somewhere outside the US, like England or something. In this case, finding a good residency in the US will be extremely difficult for you anyways since you'll be an FMG graduating in 4 years. Drop out and do whatever you want, knowing the financial risks of your decision.
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But I read a couple bold and italicized points and it sounds like you would suck at any career. Boo hoo you got addicted to coffee lol welcome to america. And you were mad your mum convinced you to do biology major instead of art and english, which probably would've got you nowhere anyway unless you wanted to be a teacher.
Lol you got into a US (didn't read long enough to make sure) med school in which 1000s of people try to do and fail, and you dropped it because your hair wasn't looking beautiful 24-7. **** man, honest to god, first world problems.
Definitely first world problems but hey she figured out that it wasn't a good match and went against her folks' wishes to be happier. Plenty of kids go into med school with the similar stories but never muster the courage to walk away from something they don't enjoy. More power to her. Med school isn't a good fit for a lot of folks. The earlier you figure that out the better (though 1st year is a rough/expensive point to find that out).
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But I read a couple bold and italicized points and it sounds like you would suck at any career. Boo hoo you got addicted to coffee lol welcome to america. And you were mad your mum convinced you to do biology major instead of art and english, which probably would've got you nowhere anyway unless you wanted to be a teacher.
Lol you got into a US (didn't read long enough to make sure) med school in which 1000s of people try to do and fail, and you dropped it because your hair wasn't looking beautiful 24-7. **** man, honest to god, first world problems.