One Hell of a year...

[Tennis Guy]

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So, this year is almost over with and I can safely say that it won't be missed... the beginning of the year started great, but it went downhill from there. (You can see my prior threads because I'm not going to repost such a long story.) I had to drop human biochemistry this semester, and I'll probably get a C- in Physics I, which I'll have to retake if so. My other two classes I should get A's in.

Well, I really studied hard for that class and can't seem to understand how it got so terrible. I bombed all of my exams and barely passed the final with a 70. I even got tutoring midway through the semester for physics, which did help but I still wasn't doing well and felt so helpless and frustrated. I did all of the assigned problems and even went to office hours but didn't read the book because it didn't seem to help me. Math and Physics are my weakest subjects by far. I'm really upset about this year and quite depressed to be quite honest. To top all of it off is that I didn't regain my scholarship that I lost as a freshman. I've had many chances to now, and now I officially blew it and used all of those up. (I came close I guess, but I needed an A in physics so that I could regain it.) It isn't too big of a deal because my dad said that he can pay it. I just feel like a terrible son... because it would have saved him a few thousand dollars. I try so hard but it seems that I always get screwed no matter what I do. I get really close, but always come short... I am trying so hard to change this.

I was in a perfect place to regain it with an upward trend from last year, but now it's a downward trend. I was looking forward to it as a shot at redeeming myself, but it didn't work out. My GPA that was needed to regain the scholarship was 3.0 and I have around a 2.96, which really blows. I have about a 2.9 cGPA and who knows what my cumulative science GPA is... sometimes I just feel really stupid. So many people I know do well, and I study a lot... it seems like they are getting something that I'm not.

I know that I can do better and it's my mind and emotions that are holding me back. I've gotten counseling and that has helped, but it seems that I'm the only one that will be able to change anything and nobody can help me. Also, I'm so scared about graduating late... right now I'll be graduating in five years at the least. Everybody is always asking me, when I'm graduating and going to apply to medical school. God damn it... I'm so frustrated right now. 🙁 Any help or advice will be greatly appreciated. 🙂

 

[Knocked Up]

Yeah, I really didn't like 2011 either. I hear 2012 is supposed to be a GREAT year and that something really good is supposed to occur.

 

[scarshapedstar]

It sounds like this emotional issue is driving you to distraction, and I don't mean that in a trivial sense, you're under a lot of stress and that can turn a hard class into an absolute brick wall.

Exercise, sleep habits, a semester off... something has to change for you to get back on track. Don't rush into another bad semester just to get it over with, that's just digging a hole. You have all the time in the world.

 

[Tennis Guy]

It sounds like this emotional issue is driving you to distraction, and I don't mean that in a trivial sense, you're under a lot of stress and that can turn a hard class into an absolute brick wall.

Exercise, sleep habits, a semester off... something has to change for you to get back on track. Don't rush into another bad semester just to get it over with, that's just digging a hole. You have all the time in the world.

Yea, I know... I have been receiving counseling and will continue to do so. Also, I'm going to probably have to go back to the basics of how to succeed and what works for me. I did so well last year, so I know that I can do it. It's just my mind and emotions that are holding me back... I will overcome this. I hope adcoms will understand me, if I have to explain what happened this year. 🙁

 

[thestrokes14]

Yea, I know... I have been receiving counseling and will continue to do so. Also, I'm going to probably have to go back to the basics of how to succeed and what works for me. I did so well last year, so I know that I can do it. It's just my mind and emotions that are holding me back... I will overcome this. I hope adcoms will understand me, if I have to explain what happened this year. 🙁

From my experience dealing with ADCOMs, you aren't judged so by the mistakes you make, but rather how you respond to those mistakes.

 

[zeppelinpage4]

It sounds like this emotional issue is driving you to distraction, and I don't mean that in a trivial sense, you're under a lot of stress and that can turn a hard class into an absolute brick wall.

Exercise, sleep habits, a semester off... something has to change for you to get back on track. Don't rush into another bad semester just to get it over with, that's just digging a hole. You have all the time in the world.

I totally understand this.

2011 was by far one of my most stressful years academically, and as the stress from classes built up, I found myself struggling and making stupid mistakes often. I also had some issues going on outside of class now and then, and those just compounded the stress more. This semester, I picked up drinking excessive amounts of coffee and lost a lot of sleep. At one point I lost the motivation to study and couldn't focus.
It's a tough cycle to break, and I'm working on getting myself back together. Things so far are looking well, as I seemed to have had that spark reignited during finals. Hopefully with winter break coming I can get a real time off and self reflect/get back to a normal healthier lifestyle too.

I wish you the best of luck Tennis Guy, I'm sure you will pull through, and don't go too hard on yourself over the grades. Sounds like you're giving it your all. And I like to believe, as long as you genuinely work hard, you get what you worked for. Perhaps not in the short term, but at some point you get the benefits. 👍

 

[Danlee07]

I can try to understand how that feels, and I think you can just make a good opportunity out of this. Try to figure out what released stress the best. Spending time with family by either seeing them or calling is one way that's helped me out. Some of my friends get nagged by their parents so they just vent to me. And evaluate your studying method. Something has to be inefficient if you're spending so much time as input and not getting as much output.

 

[mdhopeful65]

2011 was the most stressful year for me with applications and what not. I am so glad it is all basically over

 

[DocGodfather]

2011 hasn't been the greatest. I had great achievements both at work, and finishing up grad school. From getting over a girl (took most of this year🙁), to doing something I didn't like doing, to having panic attacks before grad exams, I'm just glad I survived this year. Now, I don't mind so much stressing over ochem exams, and physics and bio next term, because I'm back on the road I left years ago- medicine. I think 2012 will be a a great year. It's up to us to make it great.

 

[Slowpoke]

....From getting over a girl (took most of this year🙁).....

I feel you.... I am still "getting over" my own relationship woes... it is hard because I genuinely loved her... 🙁

Hoping for the love gods to have mercy on me in 2012.

 

[DocGodfather]

I feel you.... I am still "getting over" my own relationship woes... it is hard because I genuinely loved her... 🙁

Hoping for the love gods to have mercy on me in 2012.

Thanks, bro. I can't really talk to the guys about it, because they're only interested in dating as many girls as possible, lol. Love/life sucks sometimes. I'm looking forward to the other times.

Edit: Congrats on your MD acceptance!

 

[Slowpoke]

Thanks, bro. I can't really talk to the guys about it, because they're only interested in dating as many girls as possible, lol. Love/life sucks sometimes. I'm looking forward to the other times.

Edit: Congrats on your MD acceptance!

Could not agree more... if we ever cross paths, I wouldn't mind being your wingman, Sir.

 

[DocGodfather]

Could not agree more... if we ever cross paths, I wouldn't mind being your wingman, Sir.

Haha, for sure. 👍

 

[ADolefulDream]

Could not agree more... if we ever cross paths, I wouldn't mind being your wingman, Sir.

Awwww that is such a cute one!