Lara,
Yes, I did read your post...it sounded disturbingly similar to my situation

It also sounds like a lot that you like/dislike the same things that I do about each field. I am currently at Baylor doing a pediatric anesthesiology elective. I have been going back and forth each day and as the rank list deadline is inching closer and closer...the palpitations are increasing...here's my thoughts about this dilemma so far...I have talked with SO many people (mostly attendings and residents here) about this...and many of whom KNOWS of someone who switched from pedi to gas...i even met a guy at the post office who is a CA 1 and did pedi last year!!
Pedi - great patient contact (probably the number one thing I will miss)...I love working with families and developing a relationship with them over time. On the downside, I don't know if that is something I will eventually get sick of...especially with all the "difficult" patients/families. I also hate rounding and seeing kids over and over in the hospital...which is why i went into pedi and not IM...high turnover rate...they are sick, then they get better. I also just love being around kids..they have such a great spirit about life...and to walk into the hospital each day and see your *hopefully* smiling kiddos is such a great feeling...to know that you have made a difference. if i did go into peds, i think i would do some type of fellowship that is procedure-heavy...probably cardiology or critical care....in that case, lifestyle would be a problem...and i love so many diff aspects of medicine that i dont know if i want to be THAT specialized...but i love the critical care aspect of it...doing something more than just immunizations/milestones/runny noses...
Anesthesia - for one thing...if i did this field, I would *definitely* do a pedi fellowship afterwards, i don't think i can do anything but work with kids...that is something i am absolutely sure about. i have come to appreciate this field a lot more in the past week or so...and it has definitely started to appeal to me for several reasons. first, i love the fact that you work from start to finish...you don't bring your work home with you. second, it has tons of procedures and you get to be in the OR working with the surgeons...which i also love since i almost went into OB (thank god i got outta that one!). third, you do develop a relationship with the family/patient...ti's a very fast/intense relationship...you have to make the parents feel comfortable letting go of their child and putting him into your arms...putting 100% trust into your skills. it's a great feeling to take that child from the parents and being able to confidently give them that comfort level...it's a short but great relationship. i also love that this field is very creative and it's kinda like "magic"...there is no black and white about it...every patient is diff. and each case is unique...are so many protocols to medicine...it's nice to put some creativitiy into it and work outside the box...there and most of all...it's the lifestyle and $$...i love medicine, but i want a live outside of medicine...i talked with an attending during a case who told me this..."you may not believe me now, but in 10 years, it won't matter that you are doing a murmur workup on your kiddo, following them each year for a VSD, or intubating for yet another tonsillectomy and starting your 5,000th IV...the only thing that will matter to you while you are at work is your kids and your family waiting at home". work is work...that is all. i want the time to spend with my family and have the life i want outside of these hospital doors...
the main neg. things about gas that bother me is...1)no continuity 2) you don't really diagnose anything...you are basically managing and assisting surgery 3) there is no autonomy...you are always the consulting service...in other words, a patient can't come in and JUST see you...unless u go into pain
i hope this helps you a little...i still have a couple of weeks to decide...and i probably won't completely decide until 1/2 way through next year...
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good luck!!! email me anytime if you have any add't questions! we should keep in touch as my month here continues!!
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