I have recently been struggling with what I believe to be a fairly deep disconnect with the culture of my institution when it comes to values, and I am wondering if others have experienced the same or have advice.
Admittedly, I can sometimes be a bit idealistic. I truly went into medicine because I want to help people, and I believe that one of the amazing things about being a doctor is the obligation to overcome biases to provide high quality care to everyone. I work with a correctional population and I take pride in treating people with dignity and respect no matter what they have done in the past. I genuinely enjoy the actual work I do. Unfortunately, I find that there is a pervasive culture where people think it is acceptable to just phone it in, don’t really care about the patients, and view patients in disparaging ways (“they’re just criminals” etc.). Many of the physicians seem to share this same attitude. They view their job as simply moving patients around rather than really treating them. This has also infected forensic practice, where several evaluators seem to basically form whatever opinion is most expeditious for the hospital, and there sometimes seems to be some expectation that evaluators will do this.
I am pretty disgusted by it. On some level I can just silo myself off on my unit and continue to do my work according to my standards, but I can’t fully escape hearing these attitudes and they infuriate me. I am conflicted, though, because overall the job is good. I make what I consider reasonable money for the amount of time I have to put in. I get to treat really sick patients, which I find gratifying. I get to work with residents and try to give them a good forensic experience. There is also a group of people I consider competent and ethical, and I consider them good friends. I also feel an obligation to advocate for the patients. Still, it is just exhausting to be fighting this moral battle every day.
Is this a grass is greener situation? Is this a struggle everywhere? Does anybody have any tips to make it more bearable?
Admittedly, I can sometimes be a bit idealistic. I truly went into medicine because I want to help people, and I believe that one of the amazing things about being a doctor is the obligation to overcome biases to provide high quality care to everyone. I work with a correctional population and I take pride in treating people with dignity and respect no matter what they have done in the past. I genuinely enjoy the actual work I do. Unfortunately, I find that there is a pervasive culture where people think it is acceptable to just phone it in, don’t really care about the patients, and view patients in disparaging ways (“they’re just criminals” etc.). Many of the physicians seem to share this same attitude. They view their job as simply moving patients around rather than really treating them. This has also infected forensic practice, where several evaluators seem to basically form whatever opinion is most expeditious for the hospital, and there sometimes seems to be some expectation that evaluators will do this.
I am pretty disgusted by it. On some level I can just silo myself off on my unit and continue to do my work according to my standards, but I can’t fully escape hearing these attitudes and they infuriate me. I am conflicted, though, because overall the job is good. I make what I consider reasonable money for the amount of time I have to put in. I get to treat really sick patients, which I find gratifying. I get to work with residents and try to give them a good forensic experience. There is also a group of people I consider competent and ethical, and I consider them good friends. I also feel an obligation to advocate for the patients. Still, it is just exhausting to be fighting this moral battle every day.
Is this a grass is greener situation? Is this a struggle everywhere? Does anybody have any tips to make it more bearable?