Yes, I have.
In my teenage years, I put off pursuing my passions and exploring myself to follow the expectations shaped by my teachers, parents, family, extended family, and peers. I did the competitive high-school thing and got accepted to a few top 10 U.S. universities. Under bad advice from my parents and family, I chose to go to school X. School X was a miserable experience, but I did well enough. Everyone at school X was on route to the next stop of molding their life as a series of jumping hoops.
I went to work in the corporate sector and as a freelancer after school. It was a good and a bad experience, but further helped me get closer to my true self. I took a break from my previous career a few years back to re-think my options. I have tremendous empathy for your predicament, but here's what I can share with you from my experiences:
- Figuring yourself out comes on its own time beyond your control.
- While you may have figured it out now, you may change later. So you may wish to not do art later, or to integrate it with something else (like medicine or some other career).
- If you want to be a true artist, you have to prepared for some severe financial deprivation beyond what you can now fully comprehend.
- If you've taken out loans, those loans have to repaid. And this will add to your deprivation.
I want to do something creative in addition to medicine, and I'm structuring my path in a way that will offer me the chance to try to do that. Whether I succeed or not, who knows. But I'll make an effort at it.
As far as jobs go, I still think being an MD is the best of the lot. Higher than being a business executive or lawyer. That's why I'm doing it. I still have to live in this world and pay some dues.