Sad And Looking for Advice

[What2Do25]

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Hello guys, I am really depressed and want to share a part of me with you. I am 25 and someone who wanted to be a doctor, but I guess the dream is over for me. I started at a community college with no idea what I wanted to do with my life, but knew that school was something i wanted to do. While doing this I was working 40+ hours to support myself and help my family, a year into doing this, I became really depressed, got clinical depression and anxiety, it really sunk me in. Although I was feeling really bad, i still wanted to keep going to school and thought that maybe attending classes would help me get out of this mess ( depression ) Sadly, sometimes I would go to class, sometimes I didn't, I kept doing this for 2-3 years until I transferred to a state university, in which I am now. I transferred out with a 2.97 gpa and like 8-10 Ws and 2 Fs. I started at the University 2 years ago, in which the first semester I did good, but again, I started having financial problems which made my once control depression a real problem again. For the past year and a half, I have completed a few classes with a C average, but have some 6-8 Ws because of classes I had to drop, I also have like 3-4 Fs for classes I never went to and never dropped. I dont have any excuses, I know it was my fault but when you are going through depression and anxiety and it hits you really hard, like having suicidal thoughts there is not much room in your head for processing other things. The end of the story is this, I transferred with a 2.97 gpa and now, my overall gpa is like a 2.18 with all those bad records behind my back. I have a year left to finish my degree in psychology, in the past quarter I took 4 classes and got As in all of them. ( I managed to fix a lot of financial problems and after a year of taking meds and therapy, it seemed to work.) The simple fact that I have no personal worries ( financial, personal, family and medical) has worked so well that I 4.0 this quarter and I am sure I will do this for the year coming. I feel for once in my life like a college student, working part-time ( 30hrs a week) on campus and living in a dorm concentrating on school. I posted here in the non tradition because of my age and terrible record. I guess I simply wanted to open up and tell you my story.

Omar

 

[manfood.com]

I know how you feel. I could say I was in a worse spot academically then you were. I Would say that you are in a good place because of where you are going academically. You have overcome quite a struggle. This is who you are. This is your story. This is your plus. This is who you are and who you have become. This is why you will become a doctor. This struggle you are going through right now is the reason why you are striving to be a doctor. You need to put your head down and keep on truckin'. It's a simple fact of life that some of us struggle really really hard to achieve our dreams, our goals, our deisres. It is what makes us people, and it is ultimately what will make you a physician. To some this sounds flowery. To me this is what pushed me to keep on going. When the times get down, you need to push harder. Maybe it is my football mentallity. I know for a fact though, you keep on pushing towards your goals, you will make it. Keep your head up, and truck on my friend, truck on.

 

[trustwomen]

I know how you feel. I could say I was in a worse spot academically then you were. I Would say that you are in a good place because of where you are going academically. You have overcome quite a struggle. This is who you are. This is your story. This is your plus. This is who you are and who you have become. This is why you will become a doctor. This struggle you are going through right now is the reason why you are striving to be a doctor. You need to put your head down and keep on truckin'. It's a simple fact of life that some of us struggle really really hard to achieve our dreams, our goals, our deisres. It is what makes us people, and it is ultimately what will make you a physician. To some this sounds flowery. To me this is what pushed me to keep on going. When the times get down, you need to push harder. Maybe it is my football mentallity. I know for a fact though, you keep on pushing towards your goals, you will make it. Keep your head up, and truck on my friend, truck on.

I second that. Even if you have to start another degree, or do a victory lap to get your GPA high enough to be considered a strong upward trend, or postbacc or something, you can make it. Heck, you haven't even taken the MCAT yet!

Don't give up.

 

[ShyRem]

Third.

Stand tall and proud. You're overcoming something personally difficult. Well. And every day is a new day to do something towards your dream. 🙂

 

[Inkabellous]

Your story has really touched me personally because I have been through similar situation, though I have not yet been diagnosed with clinical depression. Like many have said, all you can do now is trying to do well in your classes and hope for the best GPA. One thing that I'd like to tell you though is that there are many ways to become a doctor. If you are not competitive for US MD, there are DO schools and even Caribbean MD. If being a doctor is what you want and you don't mind working in primary care (FM, IM, Peds, etc.), there are many options for you out there. Always remember, US MD is not the only way to become a doctor. Good luck with everything.

 

[Lshapley]

Wow, Omar, that is a really touching and inspiring story!

Remember, you are not that old in the grand scheme of things. Recent course work is most important to a lot of schools and your ability to put some really rough grades behind you with a solid streak of good grades + your very inspiring story is very important.

Finish up your good work, and maybe look into a post-bacc or masters program. I know from my post bacc that you could certainly continue working at least part time while taking classes. I wish you the best.

lee

 

[Pigg-O-Stat]

Would you consider going to the Caribbean? There are good programs that will have you back in the US within 2 years, and the admissions standards are much lower.

 

[mshheaddoc]

Everyone here has given great advice and I don't have much to really add other than many people have been in your shoes and started the long road to overcome their adversity. I wish you luck and hope on your journey because if you want it, you'll get it. 🙂