STEP 1-horrid :(

[Good Samaritan2]

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So I got my step 1 result yesterday and I did beyond awful and was just speechless and in shock. I couldn't cry or anything, it was in such a bad state of shock. I went to a caribbean school with SGU and failed my first attempt in Step 1. My seconds attempt I got a 199/77 which again brought on the shock and everything. My practice tests were in an upward trend and no joke, was a 225 for my last one I took before I took the actual exam (1.5 weeks before) and was getting about 60-65% on the practice blocks with unused questions ending off at 65-68% before my exam. Yes I've had some 'ending my life' thoughts but I'll try to work through that. It's just embarassing and I've never been more worried about my future than I am right now.

I know i wrote a lot but wanted to put it out there. Idk what to think/do as I wait for my rotation spot to be sent to me by my school. Thanks in advance for advice to help me out. Please don't hold back even if harsh, thanks.

I want to do FM or IM as of now. I have work/volunteer/club experience in case ppl were wondering. I elaborate if needbe. thanks again.

I don't post here much but felt the need to. Joined not too long ago.

 

[projectlogic]

Sorry to hear that you didn't get the score you wanted. Please do seek help if you are having suicidal thoughts.

Are you a U.S. citizen?

 

[Good Samaritan2]

yes i am a US citizen. I just went to a caribbean school. I was born in the US and live here and everything.

 

[SpecterGT260]

You will want to look at more rural programs, particularly in FM. It may be a few extra years before you can move to an area you want, but matching is not out of the question.

 

[projectlogic]

Might want to look into psych and PM&R programs also.

You obviously have an uphill battle. You cannot have any more red flags after this. It's imperative that you crush Step 2 CK, pass CS on your first attempt, and do extremely well 3rd year.

 

[SpecterGT260]

I know many very low tier FM programs in rural areas go unfilled every year. However, I have no idea if they do this by choice or if there are just no more applicants.

 

[nowanmd]

be happy you passed it's alicensing exam- really nothing more- try programs like brookdale, maimonedes, lutheran in nyc I'm sure there are many similar programs out there that will take you good luck

 

[glykon]

First of all...it's just an exam.
I know many people think it all starts and ends with it, but in the big picture, it's just another exam you took. It doesn't measure of your value as an individual. It is by no means a reason to end your life. In fact, good things usually arise from the bad things that happen to us. When a door closes, usually another one opens. When someone kicks your ass, u usually jump 5 feet ahead. If you understand that getting stock is not option, and going back is not an option either.
So heads up, even though you're in shock. Worse things can happen in life. Look around you, at other people. Find examples of really bad things that happened to them and how they turned it around.
You'll see you're not alone. You'll see it's not then end of the world. It's just a beginning....🙂

 

[WilliamsEph]

It has no bearing whatsoever on your future ability to practice medicine. You can certainly get Family or IM somewhere. There are plenty of great clinicians who went to international schools and plenty of incompetent ones who went to Harvard. No one knows who is going to be a good, practicing physician.

 

[Good Samaritan2]

thanks for the input so far guys. I know i got to go out and do great in rotation grades and do great on step II as well. Just hoping for a spot in an urban area or a suburban area or a inner city hospital. I'll try to get great LORs as well and build connections, I got no choice now so I'm not taking any risks anymore.

 

[usmlefighter]

So I got my step 1 result yesterday and I did beyond awful and was just speechless and in shock. I couldn't cry or anything, it was in such a bad state of shock. I went to a caribbean school with SGU and failed my first attempt in Step 1. My seconds attempt I got a 199/77 which again brought on the shock and everything. My practice tests were in an upward trend and no joke, was a 225 for my last one I took before I took the actual exam (1.5 weeks before) and was getting about 60-65% on the practice blocks with unused questions ending off at 65-68% before my exam. Yes I've had some 'ending my life' thoughts but I'll try to work through that. It's just embarassing and I've never been more worried about my future than I am right now.

I know i wrote a lot but wanted to put it out there. Idk what to think/do as I wait for my rotation spot to be sent to me by my school. Thanks in advance for advice to help me out. Please don't hold back even if harsh, thanks.

I want to do FM or IM as of now. I have work/volunteer/club experience in case ppl were wondering. I elaborate if needbe. thanks again.

I don't post here much but felt the need to. Joined not too long ago.

I am sorry about your score 199 on step-1 but try to improve in step-2 ck. I hope you remember me. I estimated your score roughly as 200-210 based on your feedback and my estimation is correct. Check post # 3243 at this link http://forums.studentdoctor.net/showthread.php?t=890004&page=65

Try your best in step-2..all the best

 

[UNoCholeraJnSnw]

Might want to look into psych and PM&R programs also.

You obviously have an uphill battle. You cannot have any more red flags after this. It's imperative that you crush Step 2 CK, pass CS on your first attempt, and do extremely well 3rd year.

Why PM&R? Is it not as competitive/"prestigious" as other specialties? I'd never heard of it before med school (actually, i lie--A Cartoon Guide to Becoming a Doctor introduced me before school started 😉 ), and I was under the impression PM&R programs were relatively small/not too many available spots.

I've just been curious about it. Any thoughts?

 

[UNoCholeraJnSnw]

So I got my step 1 result yesterday and I did beyond awful and was just speechless and in shock. I couldn't cry or anything, it was in such a bad state of shock. I went to a caribbean school with SGU and failed my first attempt in Step 1. My seconds attempt I got a 199/77 which again brought on the shock and everything. My practice tests were in an upward trend and no joke, was a 225 for my last one I took before I took the actual exam (1.5 weeks before) and was getting about 60-65% on the practice blocks with unused questions ending off at 65-68% before my exam. Yes I've had some 'ending my life' thoughts but I'll try to work through that. It's just embarassing and I've never been more worried about my future than I am right now.

I know i wrote a lot but wanted to put it out there. Idk what to think/do as I wait for my rotation spot to be sent to me by my school. Thanks in advance for advice to help me out. Please don't hold back even if harsh, thanks.

I want to do FM or IM as of now. I have work/volunteer/club experience in case ppl were wondering. I elaborate if needbe. thanks again.

I don't post here much but felt the need to. Joined not too long ago.

*hug* You'll just have to kick butt on Step 2 and keep working hard. Don't lose sight of your dreams. You can do it. Keep on swimming!