I have the same concern about technical ability and med school, all also stemming from traumatic experiences in undergrad lab classes. I swear I never have that feeling of being either too slow or a bull in a china shop except for in organic chem lab. I also agree with Neuronix that part of the problem was taking lab too seriously, being too concerned etc. I think I may have done consistently better on the reports/quizzes than the other students in the class, but I was also the most stressed out and the last to leave and I too think the TAs didn't love me quite as much as they should have considering that I wasn't dumping the stuff down the sink like some of the others.😱
My hand shook sometimes too... I guess from nerves? Never saw that before or since. Anyway, the whole business of being a good clinican worries me, too. But I guess I have hope that being smooth in orgo lab is different from being a doctor. (No, I don't plan on being a psychiatrist, like Ernham suggested.) I plan on maybe having to try harder than the next person at first and quieting my nerves until I get the hang of doing the procedures. But in the end, I think I am comforted by remembering that the other people who stayed late with me in orgo lab were often the ones who I noticed to be more careful, watchful and more deliberate (i.e., hence maybe I am also those things), and those seem to be good traits in a hands-on doctor.