For a while I’ve been thinking about the line from Dredd “it’s a F’ing meat grinder... people go in one end... the meat comes out the other... all [they] do is turn the handle”. Med school is a meat grinder, and I’m getting so tired of it. Everyone said “4th year will be your reward for the first three years”... I’ve found it to be the most stressful.
I’m a 4th year on an away rotation at one of my top 3 programs... I don’t think it’s gone well enough for them to match me, or even write a good letter... and in my chosen specialty, away letters are like the top thing they look at.
In addition to that, this week’s triple whammy: I got step 2 back and scored 20 points lower than my Uworld percentages predicted (it was still better than step 1, but only by 5 points), a friend in my class committed suicide last weekend, and I got a few negative comments on my mid-month feed back for the away I am on.
I know people have worse weeks, and much worse problems... but I just needed to vent.
On the step 2 score... it drops me from 90ish% match down to 80ish%, which is still better than some people. I updated all three of my top programs and none of those three told me to change the application plans I have... but I just have this huge feeling of “impending doom” that I won’t even get an interview now.
Sorry to be so vague... I just want to maintain anonymity. While I am really down about all of this, I am not thinking about hurting myself or anything like that.
I’m a 4th year on an away rotation at one of my top 3 programs... I don’t think it’s gone well enough for them to match me, or even write a good letter... and in my chosen specialty, away letters are like the top thing they look at.
In addition to that, this week’s triple whammy: I got step 2 back and scored 20 points lower than my Uworld percentages predicted (it was still better than step 1, but only by 5 points), a friend in my class committed suicide last weekend, and I got a few negative comments on my mid-month feed back for the away I am on.
I know people have worse weeks, and much worse problems... but I just needed to vent.
On the step 2 score... it drops me from 90ish% match down to 80ish%, which is still better than some people. I updated all three of my top programs and none of those three told me to change the application plans I have... but I just have this huge feeling of “impending doom” that I won’t even get an interview now.
Sorry to be so vague... I just want to maintain anonymity. While I am really down about all of this, I am not thinking about hurting myself or anything like that.