OK so here is the deal, let us assume that I attend an ivy league school, I won't mention it because I am afraid that it would be easy to recognize who I am based on the other fact that I am an underrepresented minority. Just think of me as that one kid from the hood who had to trek the whole city just to get to an ok high school. Then just off of a whim decided to apply to that "prestigious university", and magically got in. Once actually being there she finds that it is another world, where people don't get mugged everyday, and it is normal to stay up all night, for what? watching movies? no! to study! This new life has been very hard on me, hard to adjust. Thus my grades have majorly suffered! My gpa is a 2.4, that is so low. I had never in my life had a gpa that low. I sometimes get depressed and think its much better to go back home and just be a technician or something. The classes are overwhelming, and everyone just seems like they went to a mini ivy high school or something. They seem to have the upper hand by at-least knowing the basics of everything before they started college. But besides that I have thought about it, and I think that my goal is to be an honorable person, someone who can go back to the hood and help out. I'm not sure how many of you have read that book about the kids from Newark who made a pact and all decided to help each other out to become doctors, I think its called "The Pact". Sadly, I only have a couple of friends, that has also factored into my situation. So shy, so busy, so lonesome on this path... I know its not right to blame it on my "minority-ness", but I am sure that it has hindered me. I don't mean to be racist but if it is hard to be black and at a university, it is harder to be hispanic... I have no clue if I want to keep on trying at being a doctor. It is so hard to apply to internships and research programs when your gpa is that low.