How will they know that you decided it was useless? How do you think all the other Ws will be interpreted? Did you plan to provide an explanation?
I thought they would think it was useless because it was an ecology class, had no relevance to medicine, and I had already establish a great track record this year and did not need this class to finish. I merely had shown that I can handle tough class in crammed quarters, and I thought that it was good if I can end this on a high note.
The other W's were in Spring time, one of the classes was relevant and one of the hardest bio classes at my school, the other was an elective bio class that was really math based and it required a lot of studying time, more than I knew.
Anyways, I will be applying for the W and I have been someone who I think has spent time learning from my mistakes, and I simply had multiple random issues this summer, which in the short time span of summer classes impacted me from different angles and I did my best to recuperate and adapt as I have done times before.
I am often complimented by peers on my ability to work so hard and such. I accept failure, but just in some instances like this, there are sometimes outside circumstances that affect my ability to function on the highest level. When I am in the right mentality, I do great, otherwise I try to keep myself up afloat the best I can.
Thank you for your responses Mr. Catalystik. My reasons for not doing so well in this summer, is mostly due to personal issues. I am someone who needs to be in a good and happy mood to do my best, where I can do great in school and am incredibly productive. I had to grind hard this summer in the absence of friends/acquaintances, who had all left in the organizations I was part of, and I had to deal with a psychopathic subtenant in my apartment who I had to tell to leave.
I don't feel bad for the way things are honestly, as most humans I am a creature of habit. I am someone who does their best work when I feel positive, and I depend A LOT on momentum. Momentum is key for my purposes and I have been having some success from not having to rely on it, and I have dealt with difficult circumstances in the past, but the one thing that was really difficult for me to overcome was an inability to do my best in the absence of social stimulation. I need at least a few decent conversations/interactions with people a week to be really happy with myself, and I have spent the last two years honing in on enjoying my loneliness.
I'm sorry if this was all too long and pointless to the discussion, but you asked me my reason for not doing so well this summer, and I answered. I realize my weaknesses, and they are not something I will explain in this manner when confronted, as it is a really deteriorating portrayal of my character.
I think that I am a highly capable person in my mind, the vulnerability I just mentioned is just a part of my human nature. It is unconscious, and I do my best to come out of my shell when I get into lulls of unproductivity and as I mentioned, when I am in the positive mood there isn't a test or thing I won't be successful at.
Throughout the years there have been times where I have had to socially and mentally reevaluate myself, had to make friends multiple times when they all left, and have to had adapt and try new things in response to changing circumstances. I just want you to know that I am not a mentally weak individual, as I cannot beat my mild OCD and human nature on my own, but I know how to handle it.
