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I am not sure where to post this, but since i've gotten many help and mental support from SDN, I am just here to vent out the struggle that I have not been able to tell anyone. I also have lots of my classmates reading this forum, so if my identity or information i give you seems vague, i apologize in advance.
(I just wanted to start off that this thread is not about pharmacist's job market.)
I am a recent grad of 2015, took my boards, and I thought my life was going to be just fine, worry-free.
I got my first job as a pharmacist, but six month later I was fired for incompetency due to mistakes and issues with co-workers. Ever since then I attempted to find a job, but at this point I am not even trying to find a job, I am just living with my family like a parasite.
I got really good evaluations and graduated with a decent GPA. I was a good student at school or at rotation site, but when it comes to working and getting a job....i've been really bad at it. i had about two internships, and they didn't want to hire me.
One thing I don't understand about myself is that i keep making mistakes. additionally, despite of 6 years of pharmacy school, and despite the fact that I passed the board exam with good scores (>100), I am still incompetent and I can't give clinical advice. I feel so incompetent and stupid, and i am afraid to even put that pharmacy as a reference or previous work because I know what they are going to say. I think part of the reason that my job interview was bad was because they didn't give me a good referral. If I don't include my previous work, that means i haven't had a job since I got licensed; no pharmacy is going to hire me or believe me.
Browsing Facebook is the worst thing, because now my colleagues are margin 6 figures or have made their professional progression. I am the one who is standing in the same spot from a year ago. I have no idea how to get out of this endless loop of self-hatred.
If anybody had similar struggles with me please advise me. Thanks for reading this.
(I just wanted to start off that this thread is not about pharmacist's job market.)
I am a recent grad of 2015, took my boards, and I thought my life was going to be just fine, worry-free.
I got my first job as a pharmacist, but six month later I was fired for incompetency due to mistakes and issues with co-workers. Ever since then I attempted to find a job, but at this point I am not even trying to find a job, I am just living with my family like a parasite.
I got really good evaluations and graduated with a decent GPA. I was a good student at school or at rotation site, but when it comes to working and getting a job....i've been really bad at it. i had about two internships, and they didn't want to hire me.
One thing I don't understand about myself is that i keep making mistakes. additionally, despite of 6 years of pharmacy school, and despite the fact that I passed the board exam with good scores (>100), I am still incompetent and I can't give clinical advice. I feel so incompetent and stupid, and i am afraid to even put that pharmacy as a reference or previous work because I know what they are going to say. I think part of the reason that my job interview was bad was because they didn't give me a good referral. If I don't include my previous work, that means i haven't had a job since I got licensed; no pharmacy is going to hire me or believe me.
Browsing Facebook is the worst thing, because now my colleagues are margin 6 figures or have made their professional progression. I am the one who is standing in the same spot from a year ago. I have no idea how to get out of this endless loop of self-hatred.
If anybody had similar struggles with me please advise me. Thanks for reading this.