Thanks for all of the responses, I really appreciate it. As far as the kids situation is concerned, I am dying to be hands-on mom who isn't always dropping her kids off at daycare. My fiance is going to be an oral surgeon and is way more motivated for his career than I am at this point. He's been incredibly supportive and honestly just wants me to be happy with whatever decision I may make. As far as a LOA...I did that in the middle of last year, to be quite honest, because I was miserable and not doing well. I took the time to reevaluate things and decided to go back. Now, I feel like I'm hitting the same stumbling block as before. I realize if I leave that's pretty much it and I hate that. I don't want to be a "med school dropout" but I don't want to be miserable for the rest of my life either. But, again, it's so hard to know if I'll regret it if I stay and can't have the life I want or if I'll regret it if I leave and can't be a doctor...
One quick question.
When you say you dont want to be a dropout, is it because you like being in med school or is it a matter of pride. Also, have you shadowed any physicians?
Take the kids out ofthe picture for a second. is there any specialty that you feel you could do and be happy (if you did not have a family) ?
Taking care of your kids the way you want to and being a physician are not necesarilly mutually exclusive. it might be for residency, but it may not be depending on you specialty and what type of practice you end up in.
You can also be a hands-on mum even with a few hours of day care. Like i saud before, my son spends 12 hours a day in day care and neither my wife nor i have missed any of his major milestones. We both saw his first steps, heard his first words (or so we think
), etc etc. And when we take him out to the park, the dynamic between my wife and my son is just as loving and wonderful as any of the other kids with stay at home moms. If you walked up, you would not be able to tell which kid spends all day in day care. if anything, my boy is better is social settings with other kids and better at sharing and playing with others.
So It can be done, but you have to be ina specialty that makes you happy too. thats the issue, in my humble opinion.
I really hope you make the right choice. if you do choose to leave, know that it will be very difficult to get back in so dont leave with the thought that you will try again for med school once your kids are a little older. it might just be a permanent move.