PsyDocStudent
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Hi everyone,
Longtime lurker, but this is my first post.
Thanks for taking the time to read this (it’s long!).
I am looking for some advice or words of wisdom regarding what feels like a huge decision to leave my very well regarded, top tier PsyD program, or stick it out for another 3 years.
Some background and context: I graduated from Occupational Therapy school in 2017 and worked in the OT field exclusively for about 2 years. At the time, I had my eye on a doctorate, and most likely a doctorate in mental health. I then took a research coordinator/psychometrician position at a large R1 university, and did OT work on the side. From there (in the months before COVID), I applied to programs, got in, and moved with my husband, up the northeast corridor for the program.
The current situation:
I am in year 3 of the program (I took a semester off for maternity leave), and can say with some certainty that I’ve been unhappy or at least unsure for the better part of the past 3 years. I’ve realized that I can do *a lot* of interventions (CBT-I, CBIT (for tics), organizational skills training, etc.) with just my OT license. I enjoy all of these behavior-focused interventions. Yes, the going rate for sessions in private practice is a little different ($125ish-$150 -OT; $200ish PsyD)……
I never enjoyed doing traditional psychotherapy (CBT for anxiety/depression for example), and thought, originally, that I wanted to specialize in neuropsych. After completing several neuropsych assessments (ASD diagnostics, ADHD diagnostics, dementia, etc.), I’m realizing that I dread the report-writing aspect of this work. I’ve dragged my feet through completing all of my required assessment cases, putting off the report writing longer than I should have.
Also, I’m fundamentally exhausted and burned out. I can’t imagine obtaining 400 more intervention hours over the next 3 years (this needs to happen so I’m competitive for internship).
Between taking care of a baby, doing the doc program, and working a little as an OT to try to offset some of the cost (my program does offer some funding), I’m at the end of my rope. I just don’t give a wit anymore.
In the OT-world, I’m realizing I can get specialized training in various areas, including bodywork for infants with oral motor and tongue tie issues. I also have a special place in my heart for OT using horses, and am getting specialized training in this soon (after landing a part-time position in this specialty area).
Regret is a funny thing, and I’m worried I will have it if I leave the doc program. I worked so so so hard to get in, and have put 3 years (plus maternity leave) into it. That said, I feel frustrated when I think about spending another $30,000 over the next few years to finish. It feels counter-productive when I know I could make $90,000+ in the OT field, more in private practice.
If I finish, more doors will certainly be open for me in terms of teaching (in OT and PsyD programs), consulting work, etc.
I’ve considered trying to get some training in qualitative data analysis while in school, to see if I could take on a marketing/brand strategy role after the doc program is over…..
I dunno.
I feel like I turned my life upside down for this program, and I’m worried about regret, for sure, but my heart isn’t in it right now (and maybe hasn’t been for the last couple of years)…..do I push through anyway?
Longtime lurker, but this is my first post.
Thanks for taking the time to read this (it’s long!).
I am looking for some advice or words of wisdom regarding what feels like a huge decision to leave my very well regarded, top tier PsyD program, or stick it out for another 3 years.
Some background and context: I graduated from Occupational Therapy school in 2017 and worked in the OT field exclusively for about 2 years. At the time, I had my eye on a doctorate, and most likely a doctorate in mental health. I then took a research coordinator/psychometrician position at a large R1 university, and did OT work on the side. From there (in the months before COVID), I applied to programs, got in, and moved with my husband, up the northeast corridor for the program.
The current situation:
I am in year 3 of the program (I took a semester off for maternity leave), and can say with some certainty that I’ve been unhappy or at least unsure for the better part of the past 3 years. I’ve realized that I can do *a lot* of interventions (CBT-I, CBIT (for tics), organizational skills training, etc.) with just my OT license. I enjoy all of these behavior-focused interventions. Yes, the going rate for sessions in private practice is a little different ($125ish-$150 -OT; $200ish PsyD)……
I never enjoyed doing traditional psychotherapy (CBT for anxiety/depression for example), and thought, originally, that I wanted to specialize in neuropsych. After completing several neuropsych assessments (ASD diagnostics, ADHD diagnostics, dementia, etc.), I’m realizing that I dread the report-writing aspect of this work. I’ve dragged my feet through completing all of my required assessment cases, putting off the report writing longer than I should have.
Also, I’m fundamentally exhausted and burned out. I can’t imagine obtaining 400 more intervention hours over the next 3 years (this needs to happen so I’m competitive for internship).
Between taking care of a baby, doing the doc program, and working a little as an OT to try to offset some of the cost (my program does offer some funding), I’m at the end of my rope. I just don’t give a wit anymore.
In the OT-world, I’m realizing I can get specialized training in various areas, including bodywork for infants with oral motor and tongue tie issues. I also have a special place in my heart for OT using horses, and am getting specialized training in this soon (after landing a part-time position in this specialty area).
Regret is a funny thing, and I’m worried I will have it if I leave the doc program. I worked so so so hard to get in, and have put 3 years (plus maternity leave) into it. That said, I feel frustrated when I think about spending another $30,000 over the next few years to finish. It feels counter-productive when I know I could make $90,000+ in the OT field, more in private practice.
If I finish, more doors will certainly be open for me in terms of teaching (in OT and PsyD programs), consulting work, etc.
I’ve considered trying to get some training in qualitative data analysis while in school, to see if I could take on a marketing/brand strategy role after the doc program is over…..
I dunno.
I feel like I turned my life upside down for this program, and I’m worried about regret, for sure, but my heart isn’t in it right now (and maybe hasn’t been for the last couple of years)…..do I push through anyway?