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I'm thinking about quitting...
I've recently started working as an Emergency Department Scribe and have been doing so for 1.5 months. When I first started, I was so excited that I was finally applying some of the things I was learning in school (Anatomy, Physiology, Pathophys.) to the real world. I passed the required exam to become a Scribe with over 100%, and I began working with enthusiasm.
Now that I've been on the job for two months, my feelings have completely flipped. When I'm out of work, I stress over an upcoming shift. I think about the patients that I'll see, running after the Physician, catching everything he says, and being able to keep up.
At work, I actually do alright. For the most part, I'm able to keep up. The only thing I've messed up have been spelling errors on admitting Physicians. Even though I push through it and get the job done, I have to admit that it stresses me out! Physicians speak so fast and expect me to get everything down at real time. Sometimes I'll be recording an EKG and before I'm finished I hear "Dr. B is presenting the next pt", and I'll have to open up the notepad. I'll barely be done with that patient when I hear "Let's go see 15". It feels like I'm always one step away from drowning. This job is stressful. I've scoured the internet for people's experiences as a Scribe, and I keep reading about how they are excited to go to work, or it has been their greatest experience. No one seems to be identifying with my experience, which has me thinking that maybe the job isn't for me.
This leads me to the conclusion of quitting. I've analyzed the situation over and over, and I've come to the point that if you aren't happy, change it. I am not happy as a Scribe. I spend my time at work stressed, and my time off work stressing about an upcoming shift. However, what keeps from quitting is the fact that getting into this program was competitive. Around 100 people interviewed for this program and only 15 were hired. Many people would kill for this job, am I squandering an opportunity? I know that being a Scribe allows me to network with many Physicians, some of who are very influential, and a letter of recommendation from them would be the difference between acceptance or denial. I know that this job allows me to learn and experience things to a level usually only attainable by being a medical student or a Physician.
With that said, I do know the consequences of quitting. When hired, I made a 2 year commitment and it pains me that I might not be able to honor it. However, I can't avoid the fact that I feel like the best thing to do here is to quit.
I've recently started working as an Emergency Department Scribe and have been doing so for 1.5 months. When I first started, I was so excited that I was finally applying some of the things I was learning in school (Anatomy, Physiology, Pathophys.) to the real world. I passed the required exam to become a Scribe with over 100%, and I began working with enthusiasm.
Now that I've been on the job for two months, my feelings have completely flipped. When I'm out of work, I stress over an upcoming shift. I think about the patients that I'll see, running after the Physician, catching everything he says, and being able to keep up.
At work, I actually do alright. For the most part, I'm able to keep up. The only thing I've messed up have been spelling errors on admitting Physicians. Even though I push through it and get the job done, I have to admit that it stresses me out! Physicians speak so fast and expect me to get everything down at real time. Sometimes I'll be recording an EKG and before I'm finished I hear "Dr. B is presenting the next pt", and I'll have to open up the notepad. I'll barely be done with that patient when I hear "Let's go see 15". It feels like I'm always one step away from drowning. This job is stressful. I've scoured the internet for people's experiences as a Scribe, and I keep reading about how they are excited to go to work, or it has been their greatest experience. No one seems to be identifying with my experience, which has me thinking that maybe the job isn't for me.
This leads me to the conclusion of quitting. I've analyzed the situation over and over, and I've come to the point that if you aren't happy, change it. I am not happy as a Scribe. I spend my time at work stressed, and my time off work stressing about an upcoming shift. However, what keeps from quitting is the fact that getting into this program was competitive. Around 100 people interviewed for this program and only 15 were hired. Many people would kill for this job, am I squandering an opportunity? I know that being a Scribe allows me to network with many Physicians, some of who are very influential, and a letter of recommendation from them would be the difference between acceptance or denial. I know that this job allows me to learn and experience things to a level usually only attainable by being a medical student or a Physician.
With that said, I do know the consequences of quitting. When hired, I made a 2 year commitment and it pains me that I might not be able to honor it. However, I can't avoid the fact that I feel like the best thing to do here is to quit.