I am thinking about suicide

[pharmacistforever]

I am under a lot of stress from myself and my parents. My parents have very high expectations from me that I cant archive. I am expected to go to pharmacy school even though I am struggling so much with science classes that I hate. I don't like what I am studying. I work in a pharmacy and I hate dealing with patients who are rude to me for no reason. I got accepted to one pharmacy school but I dont think I will survive. I am so tired from the constant stress and the tests that dont stop. I know deep down that I wont make through pharmacy school and I will end up dropping out with so much loans or killing myself. I am pretty beaten up and I don't know what to do. My parents are extremity poor , my brother is menetly ******ed and my father has leukemia. I don't even have health insurance to go to a doctor. Yes I got accepted to pharmacy school which is a big deal for someone who is English is his second language like me. I came to america 7 years ago and life here is insanely stressful I am 25 single guy seeking an advice. I would just kill myself but I am too chicken to do it. My father used to call me a failure all the time till I got to pharmacy school. Now I am a great son even though I hate that career with a passion. I was never asked to do what I like, I always had to do what my parents like.

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[jd989898]

Call 1-800-273-8255

 

[Sarah_Sonny25]

There is always a way to a better situation even if you cannot see it yet. DO NOT LOSE HOPE!!!

 

[HCHopeful]

Hey, OP. Just know that there are always people out there who care for you. Try to have a talk with your parents about your feelings.

You're worth so much. Whatever it is you choose to do as a career, somebody's life will be better because of it.

 

[MMDB]

As HCHopeful mentioned, try discussing your feelings with your parents. They care more about you than pharmacy school.

The intelligence and hard work that got you into pharmacy school will take you far in life; don't give up hope!

 

[oneirologist]

Call 1-800-273-8255

Please do this, OP. You are worth more than you believe. Your life is worth more than you believe. Things will get better.

 

[Feelgood Inc]

Call 1-800-273-8255

PLEASE DO THIS

 

[SydSing]

PLEASE DO THIS

Agreed. Please call.

We support you.

Just know that things do change. Don't make a permanent decision based on a temporary situation.

 

[pharmacistforever]

I did talk to them in the past but I never went physically to the hospital that they refered me to. I dont know how to talk toy parents about my feelings. I will be looked down at because I am a loser since the family is filled with doctors and pharmacists

 

[gutonc]

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