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Hey,
I was wondering if anyone else felt discouraged after their first semester. I started med school and completed my first semester and I am about to go back for more in a few days and I'm really dreading going back to school. I don't know what it is. The people are great, I have pretty good friends, and I completed my first semester with pretty much a 4.0, but I am having second thoughts about medicine.
Th amt of studying, the loans, the negative aspects of medicine are still haunting me. There were days when I was utterly miserable bc I had to sit my butt in the library and study for 10hrs a day. I don't like studying, period. I can do well and I can do it if I have to but I feel like I'm in prison most of the time. Sure the material is interesting but I'm not fascinated by it like some of my classmates. I don't care if I glaze over some details, while others agonize for hrs which may be a problem for me in this chosen career.
ANyone else feels like this? DOes this mean I'm not suited for medicine? I don't know but I'm just not happy and I kind of dread the thought of doing this again in the spring.
I withdrew about 10 days ago. I just can't bring myself to study like I used to, although the volume in med school is heavier than undergrad of course. I got through the science prereqs ok, but I'm not really a science geek. I think it was just all the studying itself...I'm tired of it, not particularly as interested in it as I thought I'd be, and it only gets heavier. Seeing the enthusiasm in someof my classmates and knowingI didn't feel that way also weighed onme and I questioned whether medicine was really my cup of tea the more I thought about it. I talked to the dean and a counselor, and I'd recommend you do the same. Maybe try studying with other people?? At the end of the day, after not being able to shake the funk, I decided I could'nt take the chance of being largely unhappy/trudging along at the bottom of the class (a sure sign I wasn't happy) and because of low grades limit my future options. The other elephant in the room was that if I waited till clinicals I would've been in about 90k in loans and acrrued interest...kinda hard to get out at that stage since your limiting your possible careers to those that can pay that kind of a bill. I didn't want to be trapped in something that I wasn't for sure I really wanted. And I'm a firm believer that as a demanding profession if you aren't absolutely convinced you'll love medicine in the future the smart thing is not to do it.
Its like the old maxim I've heard repeated on here by more advanced people....if you could see yourself being happy doing anything else but medicine, do that instead.
G'luck in your decision, and like I said, go talk to your higherups and tell them how you feel. See what they say and if they can help you. Hope I helped!!
medchic,
now would be a great time to get out if you truly don't want to do medicine.
If you just hate studying as much as you are doing, you may be able to get away with studying less. The fact that you say you have a 4.0 makes me think that you can. Acing 1st year classes really isn't necessary, unless you really want to be a dermatologist, in which case it would be helpful. 3rd year clinical grades are really what make or break you, and at many schools more heavily weighted than 1st/2nd year. At my school 3rd year counted as much as 1st and 2nd year put together, or maybe more.
medchic,
do you like it when you get to do things at the hospital, like practicing patient encounters? I mean could you imagine yourself liking it if it actually mattered, I mean, and if everyone didn't think you were "in the way"?
Thanks everyone for your replies.
Honestly, I don't know how I will feel about 3rd year. I can do well with the books (despite my lack of love of sitting at a desk for 10 hrs straight and studying), but I'm nervous about performing manual tasks in front of higher ups who will be judging me. Although I seemed to appear "cool and confident" on the outside when doing things like suturing and assisting in procedures in my job prior to med school, I know I'd get very anxious about screwing up in front of the residents and attendings. Perhaps everyone feels that way, but I am petrified by the thought of rounding and pimping; I'm not sure I'm that passionate about medicine itself. I know I should sit down with a counselor and re-evaluate some things next semester, but I'm just so bi-polar about this! I should know if I like medicine - I've had enough jobs to explore the field. I know only that the answer is not a resounding "YES I love medicine", it's kind of an uncertain ok, "I guess I could do this". It's just that I honestly don't know if I want that responsibility. And no, I don't want to be a PA or a nurse. If I were to quit medicine, I know that I would definitely enter another field which makes me question it even more.
Koopatroopa,
Thanks, I think I'll look into that option, actually. Perhaps taking a leave of absence after 1st year would also be a good idea to go back to the industry I wanted to continue pursuing for a while longer
I'm trying to decide if I chose medicine for practical reasons rather than for an actual love of it. I feel kind of guilty bc on one hand I am SO BLESSED to be here in med school right now. At the same time, I'm so unhappy sometimes.
Yeah, that's a tough one. They say that you shouldn't go into medicine if there's anything else you'd rather do. Now that you're in med school, I'd say you should push through unless you have a concrete idea of what you'd rather be doing.
Did you go straight from undergrad to med school?
Hey,
I was wondering if anyone else felt discouraged after their first semester. I started med school and completed my first semester and I am about to go back for more in a few days and I'm really dreading going back to school. I don't know what it is. The people are great, I have pretty good friends, and I completed my first semester with pretty much a 4.0, but I am having second thoughts about medicine.
Th amt of studying, the loans, the negative aspects of medicine are still haunting me. There were days when I was utterly miserable bc I had to sit my butt in the library and study for 10hrs a day. I don't like studying, period. I can do well and I can do it if I have to but I feel like I'm in prison most of the time. Sure the material is interesting but I'm not fascinated by it like some of my classmates. I don't care if I glaze over some details, while others agonize for hrs which may be a problem for me in this chosen career.
ANyone else feels like this? DOes this mean I'm not suited for medicine? I don't know but I'm just not happy and I kind of dread the thought of doing this again in the spring.
I would say that there are definitely alot of negative aspects of medicine. First year is certainly one of them. Like you, I did pretty well in first year but I didn't really enjoy it. Now that I'm a second year, I really enjoy everything I'm learning, but what I don't enjoy is the insane amount they are requiring us to learn and the almighty Step 1 that looms around me. So give it a little time.Hey,
I was wondering if anyone else felt discouraged after their first semester. I started med school and completed my first semester and I am about to go back for more in a few days and I'm really dreading going back to school. I don't know what it is. The people are great, I have pretty good friends, and I completed my first semester with pretty much a 4.0, but I am having second thoughts about medicine.
Th amt of studying, the loans, the negative aspects of medicine are still haunting me. There were days when I was utterly miserable bc I had to sit my butt in the library and study for 10hrs a day. I don't like studying, period. I can do well and I can do it if I have to but I feel like I'm in prison most of the time. Sure the material is interesting but I'm not fascinated by it like some of my classmates. I don't care if I glaze over some details, while others agonize for hrs which may be a problem for me in this chosen career.
ANyone else feels like this? DOes this mean I'm not suited for medicine? I don't know but I'm just not happy and I kind of dread the thought of doing this again in the spring.
Hey,
I was wondering if anyone else felt discouraged after their first semester. I started med school and completed my first semester and I am about to go back for more in a few days and I'm really dreading going back to school. I don't know what it is. The people are great, I have pretty good friends, and I completed my first semester with pretty much a 4.0, but I am having second thoughts about medicine.
Th amt of studying, the loans, the negative aspects of medicine are still haunting me. There were days when I was utterly miserable bc I had to sit my butt in the library and study for 10hrs a day. I don't like studying, period. I can do well and I can do it if I have to but I feel like I'm in prison most of the time. Sure the material is interesting but I'm not fascinated by it like some of my classmates. I don't care if I glaze over some details, while others agonize for hrs which may be a problem for me in this chosen career.
ANyone else feels like this? DOes this mean I'm not suited for medicine? I don't know but I'm just not happy and I kind of dread the thought of doing this again in the spring.
In the first two years, I have to say that first semester of first year is the worst. Anatomy is probably the most rigorous course you will take in medical school (with the most memorization of seemingly useless facts). The only anatomy that is important is neuroanatomy and you will have your own course on it. The rest of anatomy has small factoids that are relevant in terms of different procedures that you will know when you get to it. Many of the other things like the physical exam you will learn about in physical diagnosis in second year. Second year is way better and things build on previous information. Everything gets much more interesting and becomes second nature. Studying is more enjoyable as it is more applicable to medicine.
As for third and fourth year, I don't know yet. However, I am sure you will be putting in more hours, it will feel like work, and depending on your learning environment you may feel alone sometimes.
Why is everyone saying 2nd year is better.....when most of you guys moan how 2nd year is like a bitch and will rape you up the ass.
I don't understand this sudden change in tone.
I withdrew about 10 days ago. I just can't bring myself to study like I used to, although the volume in med school is heavier than undergrad of course.
G'luck in your decision, and like I said, go talk to your higherups and tell them how you feel. See what they say and if they can help you. Hope I helped!!
Good for you! Many people are too afraid to admit these things to themselves but if they did, they'd probably jump ship too. Anyway, the question I have is - do you feel relieved?
Thanks. Yes, to some extent I feel relieved and overall I'm happy with my choice, but at this point I think that's to be expected after finally making a decision that you've been building up to. Long term? Who knows. So far I've just felt a few fleeting moments of sadness?? that I won't get to have all those shared experiences with the friends I've made here, but that doesn't really have anything to do with medicine itself.
Bodonid, I'm not sure. Teaching in some form is near the top at the moment, but I'm keeping an open mind and am going to take a little bit of time to figure out my next move. Plumber? Secret Agent? I just did my FA exit int and I've got ~36k in loans and interest (I took an LOA last year, and suggest the OP look into that as well), so that'll play a part in what I decide to do haha.
I have a question open to anyone:
For those of you who are thinking about bowing out or have already, how many of you took time off between high school & undergrad or between undergrad & med school? Or did you go from high school straight into undergrad and then into medical school?
Are you (relatively) very young and got into something you weren't 100% sure about? Are you an older student and medicine just wasn't what you were expecting?
You have to sacrifice a lot while in med school. I knew it was going to be hard, but not enough to sacrifice other areas of living. For most med students, if you want good grades you have to give up on something you like doing. I had to give up piano and cut down on exercise time. I've had my thoughts of quitting, but the thing that keeps me going is sports med or PM&R.
You wouldn't happen to go Wayne would you?
Nope